Entries for March, 2004
March 1st, 2004
Idiot POSTED AT 11:53 AM Her favourite phrase seems to be "I'm not going to explain this now becaue I'm sure you cannot understand now," and "We will wait for the text book because it's too complicated. You won't understand now." What on earth are your stupid notes for then? She ended today at Memorandum saying we're faster than the schedule (we skipped a few parts because we won't understand) but Bernard's class last week already finished Memorandum AND Ultra Vires and are probably going on to the next chapter (if they don't do the past year questions)! Undoubtedly we will all understand better when the textbooks arrive next week, but that's no excuse to waste our time! We managed perfectly fine last semester under Bernard even in the first few weeks before the textbooks came. (Remembering that she didn't finish tutorials with us last semester.) Geramnya! talk to me!
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March 2nd, 2004
bla bla bla bla POSTED AT 10:30 PM My mouse is kind of jammed... don't know why... not moving smoothly. And now my comp is jamming. Nuts! My hand phone is practically useless now - shuts off everytime I press any button or when any call/message comes in. What's this? Crazy electronics day? (Why is there not enough memory to have 2 browsers up at the same time? Hm. I've only got 1 Word file, one IE browser, Y!M and MSN. I've already shut down ICQ. Strange.) Anyways, read Timothy. Right. Make me happy and give lots of reviews. 
Reading: Alex Haley's Roots Feeling: puzzled |
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March 4th, 2004
a book mood POSTED AT 09:08 PM Okies... which is why I wasn't on the computer all of a sudden (and the fact that my comp suddenly slowed... and we discovered it was a virus. Sigh) So have been scanning and "disinfecting" and defragmenting. Hopefully computer will start working faster now. Oh yea, talking about all the dysfunctioning electronics in my house? I forgot to say that BOTH the TV's aren't working either. So I'm TV-less too. I've been doing maths all afternoon! I'm now on Tutorial 4 and we're only doing Tutorial 2 in class tomorrow. Yes, I'm nuts, but we've already covered the chapter. By tomorrow, I'll be able to finish up to Tutorial 5 or 6 - assuming I feel like it. Reminder: THE SEVEN SISTERS AND THE LAST BUTLER by the d2 team plays this SATURDAY (6 MARCH) at 7.30 pm, FGAC Air Itam. BE THERE OR BE SQUARE! (heh, I've always wanted to say that) Reading: Alex Haley's Roots Listening to: Avalon's Don't Save It All For Christmas Day Feeling: math-y |
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March 6th, 2004
lame drama! POSTED AT 10:57 PM Woke up at ten something, tried to get some stuff done. (What stuff?!) Left house at 2.10pm, fetched Eunice from Logan, Charlotte from Jesselton, stopped at Young Ones, reached church at about 3.15pm. Ooh, sidenote, we finally got a new TV! Practice, practice, practice. Panic, panic, panic. Dinner. Final panic. Doors opened at 7.35, we started the 'welcome' at about 7.45. It was fun! A little soft at parts. Made a total fool of ourselves during THE SEVEN SISTERS AND THE LAST BUTLER, but it was fun, and the audience laughed. THEY SOAKED IT UP!!! Whee!! Bad Ben and Bad Cow didn't turn up  Chou Pau and gang were already back in SP. Sad lah. Oliver and Daniel Chan and Timmy were there, and a few of Renee's gang were there. Clare also didn't come!! and Shari. I don't know why I bother asking people. Need more publicity next time. Bigger announcement. No parents turned up. Aish.Oh, and the drama with Shari... we thinks it's off. Shari says Shaz(wan) didn't get back to her about it. So. Sad. Bad. Bleah. But today was cool!
Reading: Alexandre Dumas's The Count of Monte Cristo Listening to: Israel and New Breed's Don't Want To Leave Feeling: sad and happy |
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March 7th, 2004
misc. POSTED AT 05:45 PM People To Pray For 1] Ama & Akong (my grandparents) Just now (about 2pm) on Sunday, I talked to ama about accepting Jesus as her personal saviour. She is admitted to the hospital for diarrhoea... 2] Sarah Sim Yeah churches are really different, actually I'm facing church issues at the moment.. like, different practices and stuff so pray for me. It's terrible that even though all are children of God there can still be so much division... ~ Sarah Sim 3] Losheni She is currently still in coma - Island Hospital. Parents are desperate. Father is a staunch Hindu (I think) but at this moment, are open for anyone to pray for her. |
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March 8th, 2004
shopping! POSTED AT 05:51 PM I bought 2 shirts, 1 jeans, 1 pants, 1 skirt for about RM70 something - daddy's money. Not bad, eh? Looked around for phones too - thinking of getting the Nokia 8210. It's RM 340. Sure, the 3315 is cheaper... but I don't want that!! confusion utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar utar ktar WHERE SHOULD I GO??? Getting more confused as the days go by. Getting more fed up as different info trickles in from all over the place. Right now, KTAR/TARC sounds like the better one. Don't know when new info will come and make UTAR sound nicer. Reading: Leslie Charteris's The Saint in New York Feeling: satisfied |
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March 9th, 2004
tiring day POSTED AT 10:04 PM  , went back for 2.30 law tutorial. Sat irritatedly in class with Ms Khoo, jumped for joy at 4 when the class finished, paid up RM2 for stupid class photo, went to B105 for CF. Was supposed to song lead, my musicians didn't know how to play my songs, grabbed Benedict to help them (he seemed to know the most songs). Wondering what's so "unknown" about One Desire and Let My Words Be Few. Aish. Sang You Are My World too - would rather have sang For All Eternity, but that would most probably have killed my musicians (even though the chords sound almost the same to me.)After CF decided to have dinner with them at Golden Horse. Learnt that Evangel has Who We Are Instead, so went there to get the CD for Benedict. Been planning that for ages. (shh! Giving it to him tomorrow) Planning to do maths after writing this. Conclusion: spent almost RM50 today, but more than half of that was for a belated birthday cum appreciation gift. Note to self: remember to do By The Fireplace tomorrow Reading: Erle Stanley Gardner's The Case of the One-Eyed Witness Feeling: tired |
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March 9th, 2004
new pics! POSTED AT 11:20 PM |
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March 10th, 2004
March 10th, 2004
OPPORTUNITY + EXPECTATION POSTED AT 10:52 PM Wednesday, 10 March 2004 Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.” Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed from that moment. Matthew 9:20-22 When opportunity knocks, how quickly do you answer? I’m sure all of us have at least some regrets over missed opportunities. We’ve missed out on something or other because we weren’t paying attention. Or sometimes we see an opportunity but follow it only half-heartedly, not expecting anything. And we end up with nothing. Ps Sam from Excel Point was speaking in our CF today, and he told us the story of the woman with an issue of blood. For 12 years, she’d been bleeding. That’s twelve years of ceremonial uncleanness – meaning social ostracism, lack of spiritual food, physical suffering and financial difficulties. And after these 12 years, she’s so desperate that she sees Jesus, remembers all the wonderful things he has done, and goes, “Maybe if I just touch His cloak, I’ll be healed.” There’s a crowd surrounding him and she pushes her way to just touch his cloak – and she can feel that she’s well again! Through the push and shove, Jesus turns round and asks, “Who touched me?” and later on “Your faith has healed you.” She saw the opportunity and went after it with an expectant heart; a heart full of faith. Sometimes we ask things from God half-heartedly, not really expecting, with not much faith. And when God doesn’t pull through, we go, “see? It was a good thing I didn’t put all my hopes on that.” Do you think God may not be moving because we are not expecting? |
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March 11th, 2004
slow day POSTED AT 08:19 PM Not bad. Am trying to do Chapter 5 of Timothy, but rather stuck. Sigh. Need to start organising the songs in my computer to burn them out.  Need to earn/save more $$ to buy more CDs and books. Need to get a new computer! Hehe...
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March 12th, 2004
silence... POSTED AT 06:35 PM I think I've sort of decided that I'm going TARC KL for Advanced Diploma. Sorry, Wen Ping . Been asking around about houses... not much information coming in yet.Uploaded some new photos in the gallery... will get round to finish organising them soon. I'm lazy.
Reading: Wheels by Arthur Hailey Feeling: lazy |
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March 13th, 2004
the passion of the Christ POSTED AT 12:45 AM Either you’re profoundly moved by the suffering Jesus went through for your sake, or you wonder at what ‘wonders’ this silent, brooding, broken man could possibly have done. Sure, they showed the part where Jesus restored the ear that Peter cut off, but it was quick, negligible. You could have missed it by yawning. Sure, the gospel message was portrayed clearly – but Jesus as a man and leader was not. I couldn’t see anything that spectacular that was portrayed about Him that would make me want to believe His words about being the only way to the Father. I only saw a man beaten, whipped, killed. Yes, I have just watched the Passion of the Christ. Somehow, after hearing all the rave reviews and how it affected people’s lives, it didn’t impact me that much. Maybe I was expecting too much – my normal excuse for anything that disappoints. Maybe I’m too jaded towards violence to really feel anything. Or maybe I’m just skirting the issue subconsciously. They said they cried while watching the Passion. We discussed what was right and wrong historically, meaning of symbolisms, and laughed. They said the anguish He went through made them realise how much Jesus suffered for them. I dismiss violence with an ‘ouch’ and a wince. Maybe my uncle was right when he said the anointing would go out of a pirated DVD. Maybe it wasn’t the right atmosphere, or the right time. Or maybe the missing big screen effect of colour and sound made me more flippant. Blood… too much blood. Is there some Catholic symbolism about touching Jesus’ blood? Mother Mary and Mary Magdelene wiped up Jesus’ blood from the floor. Some unidentified woman let Jesus wipe his bloody face on her headscarf thing, and then she kissed it or smelled it or something. Mother Mary kissed his foot – also full of blood. Yes, I know, eat of his flesh and drink of his blood. But literally? Follow Me. We love Him. We say we will follow Him to the ends of the earth, to our deaths if need be. And yet Peter betrayed Him. He said take up our crosses and follow Him. I’d much rather wear a choker with a cross and make it part of my fashion than to really suffer for Him. He was persecuted, so we will be. Yet I want to stay in my comforts and comfort zone. He told us to reach out to the lost, the homeless and the needy. Most of my money is channelled into my three main interests – food, music and books. Anyone who loves his father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; anyone who loves His son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Who am I kidding? I don’t love Him enough - and yet I do. I say I can’t go on, and yet I do. Something keeps holding me back from breaking away. Could this be a test run for when I leave home? In bitterness, I scold God with one breath and tell Him with another not to listen to me ranting because I’ll regret it in the morning. Sometimes the question is, “Where are You, God?” Sometimes it’s “What’s wrong with me?” And always, it is “Where is your heart today?” What’s your problem with God? Maybe I’m angry at Him for letting me have allergies. Maybe I’m upset with Him because He made me such a loner that I find it hard to fit in anywhere. Maybe I’m so full of myself that I can’t give Him my 100%. Maybe… it’s just that I can’t feel Him when I need Him. Maybe I’m struggling too much over nothing. Do I have a problem with God? I don’t know. I have a problem with people. I suppose that means I have a problem with God too. You can’t love God if you don’t love people and you can’t love people if you don’t love God. Maybe I grew up with too much theology and doctrines that I’m confused. Too many people playing with words make them sound cleverer than they really are. Are you jaded? Yes I am. Very. The Passion of the Christ was supposed to make me less jaded by finally showing me the reality of the pain and humiliation Jesus went through to bring me back to God. But it did not. What it did, however, was to induce me to write. In writing, you think. And I’m thinking there must have been something really special about Jesus that made millions of people follow Him for the span of 2 millennium. There must have been something spectacular that people are willing to die for their faith. There must have been something real in this story obscured by time. There must have been something true in the passions and emotions of the last nights of camps. And yet, sometimes I don’t get what it is. There is something eluding my thoughts at the moment. Why do you embrace your cross, fool? Because there are people like me to be saved. Feeling: thoughtful, honest. |
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March 13th, 2004
Altered Frequency POSTED AT 11:40 PM Check out fictionpress for new poems that will be posted after I post this. I got my Ori copy of Exalt autographed! Yeah, I'm so cacated. Hehe... Next time, Josh, us k? You and me and Fran and Ian and Mace and Pin and I don't know who else... Hehe... Listening to: Altered Frequency's Worthy |
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March 14th, 2004
maybe a bit more now la POSTED AT 12:26 AM running back to you Oh well... might as well just bla everything I can now. (Yes, I'm fickle. I realise I also said that I'm not going to update frequently)Some one said this. I think it was Nicholas. (Sorry lah... I tak cham all their faces... I'm not that nuts) He was talking about being a second generation Christian. How it's really easy to live on your parents faith and not have a faith of your own and yet assume you're okay. And I guess that's what really hit me most. Right after he talked they sang running back to you (above) and sometime, can't remember before or after, they sang What If I Stumble Now my thoughts have flown away. Sigh. Will get back to it later.
Listening to: Running Back To You |
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March 17th, 2004
famous! POSTED AT 10:33 PM Met Clarene's sister. Clarene was talking to her mom and then her sister (younger - I think form 1 or 2) suddenly asked me "Are you Anna?" I said, "Yeah.... do I know you?" "No. From Star of Persia right? I saw you." "Oh." "You're famous in CGL." "Oh." Felt like a goldfish... didn't know what to say. Also just remembered that Aunty Susan's kid in Prai thinks I'm a movie star. Hehe...David's home from Leadership Retreat with a fever and sniffles. I've got Math test on Friday, Law test on Saturday. Anything else? Don't know, don't remember. Just had dinner at Song River, and then lepak-ed a short while at MPH. Need to go study. Sigh. Need more sleep. Sigh. Have not been writing Timothy. Sorry. Wait. After this Saturday, ok? |
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March 18th, 2004
GOD’S TIMING POSTED AT 03:47 PM Wednesday, 17 March 2004 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1 Paul Ang spoke on Sunday about the three kinds of the word time used in the Bible. First there is kronos – the chronological order of things. Secondly comes kairos – the opportunity time or time that brings significant change. This comes suddenly and brings with it struggles. Finally comes bleroma – the fullness of time. Tying this in with opportunities, it makes sense doesn’t it? Like the woman with the issue of blood, she was going through the normal, the mundane, and then suddenly she hears about Jesus who has been performing miracles. Her kairos has come. Suddenly, she has the hope of being well. But it isn’t so simple. She has to figure out how to get to Jesus in the first place. How should she approach Him? She’s ceremonially unclean. If she goes up to Him, He might get unclean – and then how’s He going to heal the little girl of that synagogue leader? And she thinks to herself that if she just touches His cloak, she’ll be healed. I expect that even as she reached out to touch Jesus’ cloak, she must have been struggling with her faith and expectations – who wouldn’t? And she touches Him and she is healed in the fullness of time. Sometimes we struggle with stuff and start thinking that maybe God doesn’t want to help us. It’s important to remember that maybe it’s not the right time yet. It’s important to remember that even while waiting for a breakthrough, breakthrough doesn’t happen instantaneously. It comes in its time. It’s season. Consider what season you are in now. |
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March 18th, 2004
89th entry POSTED AT 03:50 PM Can't wait for the 100th... but I'll probably miss it anyway... haha.Has your name ever been used to count when taking photographs? Mine has! Yesterday, we were helping a friend use up film. Ben was taking the photo and he counted "Anna 1, Anna 2, Anna 3!" Sort of beats saying "Cheese" doesn't it? |
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March 19th, 2004
test... POSTED AT 05:56 PM Lazy la... hai. Oh well, its only like 2 chapters. Bye Bye CD Writer My computer suddenly has a lot of space. It suddenly seems to run a leetle faster. Hah. My CD player, however, is now working overtime. It's irritating though, that every time I knock the table the CD will jump. (Do you call it jump? Whatever.) So it's like I'm doing work at my table and I turn around to touch the computer and accidentally touch that table "harder than I need to" and the thing does the spin spin spin... thing. Okies. Law. 2 fat textbooks on my table, two sets of notes. I still don't like Ms Khoo.
Reading: companies' act 1965 & Walter Woon's company law Listening to: Getting Into You (Relient K) |
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March 19th, 2004
Baby pictures! POSTED AT 06:12 PM [img:177228] [img:177229] |
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March 20th, 2004
writing... POSTED AT 04:00 PM Law test is over, but guess what? Exams start in 3 weeks! sniff And after that... I'll have a diploma! Sheesh. That sounds so lame. And after that... KL here I come! But scary lah, leaving home. Nothing much really happened today. I'm here at home in front of the computer, listening to music, writing, occasionally reading a chapter of The Count of Monte Cristo. It's hot. Me thinks I shall go and have a loooooong bath... soak in water... get cold... erm. Mummy not home! Reading: The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas) Listening to: John 3:16 (Josh Yeoh) Feeling: a little distracted |
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March 21st, 2004
Polling Day POSTED AT 08:59 PM Today was not a very good day. I had cramps. Sigh. Bad tummy. Which is why I didn't finish chapter 6 of Timothy. Sorry! Bad day. I had lots of things I wanted to say earlier on in the day, but it's gone by now. Sigh. Bad brain. Anyway, watch out for tributes coming soon. I'm in a nostalgic mood. Sue me. Listening to: Love is the movement (switchfoot) |
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March 21st, 2004
insensitivity? POSTED AT 11:44 PM I really thank God for my brain. I struggled through secondary school only because I was too lazy to study (not that I'm not lazy now) and there were no study weeks for me to cram. And besides, I just don't like History and Geography and BM and Art and PJ. But coming to TARC it suddenly seems like I'm doing so well. I don't know how to deal with people failing papers because with the low passing mark of 40 it seems pretty impossible to fail (to me). Maybe it's because of the language, but not for the people I'm thinking about. I'm trying to empathize, but it's hard. I try to steer away from talking about results because every time I do, I feel like I'm rubbing it in or something. I feel like I'm gloating. I don't know if they think of it that way, but the thought occurs to me that they might. And the thought also occurs to me that I might (be gloating in a way.) I don't know how to respond when they say "you're smart la" because I don't feel smart. I just feel that I've done my best, prayed hard, and God is blessing me because I've been serving him in the CF. But I don't know how to tell them that. I talked with Ms Shirley, and she's quite concerned about some people in the CF. I'm quite concerned too. But I don't know how to help. And every time I want to offer to help, I wonder if I can really help. I don't know how to. I don't know how sincere I am in wanting to help. I'm second-guessing myself and others. I think I need a lot of work on the social-relational side of me. It's sadly lacking, and it's painfully obvious. Maybe that's why I've never been close to many people. Maybe that's why I'm building walls around myself. But I thank God for this bunch of CF people. They've helped me pull down walls, helped me to be more open, more friendly. And for the first time in my life, I'm reluctant to leave. Sometimes I think I'm selfish. Very selfish. Do reply to this post. Feeling: thoughtful |
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March 22nd, 2004
I sent it!! POSTED AT 01:17 PM Skipped UTAR briefing today. After all, I'm probably not going there so why waste my time? They didn't say it was compulsory anyway. Tomorrow TARC is having a briefing for us Accounting people about the ACCA thingy and with the course tutors and everything. Haven't found a house in KL yet!! Argh... 2 months more!! Tummy still minimally ok. Funny that it's bad for so long. Maybe because I haven't had lunch yet. Hungry.I still hate HTML. |
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March 24th, 2004
dreams... POSTED AT 01:20 PM What's wrong with me?Today for CF we're going to have treasure hunt. Hai. That means walking and thinking. Sheesh. Next week: senior's farewell!! Next week's the last CF meeting of the year! Woah... *sniff* I'll be in KL in two months time... *sniff* and still haven't found a place... *sniff* definitely going to stay in the hostel if it has wifi... (hahahhahahhahahha please please please please please?!?! )If it doesn't erm... WHERE TO STAY?! Oh well. Listening to: World Apart (Jars of Clay) |
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March 24th, 2004
WORKING OUT OUR FAITH POSTED AT 09:18 PM Wednesday, 24 March 2004 Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. Philippians 2:12-13 Day 23 of the Purpose Driven Life states “this verse shows the two parts of spiritual growth: ‘work out’ and ‘work in’. The ‘work out’ is your responsibility, and the ‘work in’ is God’s role. Spiritual growth is a collaborative effort between you and the Holy Spirit. God’s Spirit works with us, not just in us. This verse, written to believers, is not about how to be saved, but how to grow. It does not say ‘work for’ your salvation, because you can’t add anything to what Jesus already did.” I guess sometimes I forget the “collaborative” part of spiritual growth. We either try to work things out on our own and fail… or we ‘leave it all to God’ and find that nothing much is really happening. It’s not on our own strength that we can serve God totally. We must realise that what God wants us to do, He will prepare us and give us the tools we need. Salvation is needs constant working out. It’s not a one-time “oh, I’m saved! I’m there already”. Yes, it’s true that what Jesus has done on the cross has wiped away our sins and made a way for us to be with God in heaven, but that’s not the whole story. He wants us to have abundant life NOW, on earth, and that comes through growing in Him. Living life to the fullest needs us to be constantly in contact with our Saviour, growing, and working out our salvation in Him. Accepting Christ once and never lifting a finger to change yourself to be what He wants you to be doesn’t really work. That’s not obedience. I guess we’ll never be “there” until we reach heaven, so that means a lifetime of growing in Him! |
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March 25th, 2004
tribute 1: pauline POSTED AT 12:11 AM I'm really happy that I met her. Even though she's not a Christian, she's a very kind and friendly and caring person. And we had lots of fun times together! Assignment times are crazy - we'd do the stuff and compare... and if it's the same, we can scream for joy! Maybe I'm thinking about her now because I just finished the Company Law Assignment.Ahaha.. our trademark seems to be drawing smiley faces on each other's notes during class. Hai, all my notes kena terconteng-ed by her. And not just in pencil - in highlighter!! Hey Pau... if you are reading this... muaks! I think we'll be in TARC KL together... same class again? Maybe.
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March 25th, 2004
bullied!! POSTED AT 05:05 PM I WAS SO FREAKED OUT!! Then kept miss calling... At the end of the class, Deanny turns round and said, "You promise you won't shout ya." So I said okay, and the mystery caller was her!!!  Ooh... geramnya! She just got a new number. I tell you... I wanted to tumbuk her!Had hokkien mee for lunch today. Yummy! I think I'm not going to stay at the TARC KL hostel. It seems that we can't book it from Penang. We have to wait till we get our results from this semester and then go down to KL and apply for a place. Which would probably be in May already. Kind of late. Sigh. So... back to house-hunting. There's a possibility that we'll rent a low-cost apartment somewhere in Jalan Genting Kelang which I heard is about RM500 and has 3 rooms. Wai Yi and me and Ivan. Aiyah... how?
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March 26th, 2004
happy birthday, Wen Ping! :birthday: POSTED AT 08:05 AM Today: lunch date with her and others... classes as usual... erm. Maybe I'll fit in her tribute today since it's her day. Hehe... That means, check back later in the day.
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March 26th, 2004
A \"Watery\" Day POSTED AT 09:03 PM We finished lunch at about 3.30pm and then went to Gurney to watch a movie. Decided on Whale Rider because it was either that or Ah Lok Kafe. I didn't mind either, but Wai Yi said, "Har? Malaysian movie arr?" So I suppose I'll catch that another time. It was a nice movie. I guess that I kind of identified with her, especially the part where she was giving the speech at her school concert, and her idiotic grump of a grandfather didn't turn up. And she was trying to hard not to cry, but she couldn't help it. Maybe that's what I'm afraid of. Rejection. Humiliation. I remember crying myself to sleep when a whole bunch of people my age went out and didn't invite me. Anyway, so what with the Ship and Whale Rider... it was a watery day. Still discussing stuff about houses... susah lah. I wanna stay at home for the rest of my life! Heheh... Random thoughts: Paikea's daddy was cute! Especially when bald... he wasn't so handsome when he had long hair. I like Paikea's features. Her eyes are beautiful. I think her name is Keisha Castle-Hughes or something like that. Keisha sounds nice. I wish I could act like Keisha! |
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March 26th, 2004
I was too free!! POSTED AT 11:51 PM active but not manic. In short, you're a great girl who's ready for a relationship. If you're not already involved with someone, it's only because you want a guy who's worthy of your love---you just haven't met him/her yet. That's cool. You've got plenty of other interests to keep you busy. When you do meet ''Mr. Great'' chances are you won't abandon all the other important stuff in your life for romance. In fact, your independence and spirit will be part of what attracts him---and keeps him. Are YOU ready to have a BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? For the OLDER GALS/GUYS! brought to you by Quizilla |
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March 27th, 2004
houses and houses and houses POSTED AT 11:40 AM Hard to find a house in KL. There was an interesting prospect of a 3-room apartment for only RM550 and I guess uncle (or is it koko???) Peng Hooi will be checking the area out. It's supposedly not too good, because it's around the kampung area. If we want more upscale places we'll need to find at least 2 more housemates and that's like... how?? who?? So we decided... we shall find a nice big longkang and live in there. Get a plastic sheet to keep out the rain. And then when City Hall or whatever it's called comes to evict us, they'll have to find us a house. Unless they send us to Tanjung Rambutan. :_ 3 homeless people. Me, Wai Yi and Ivan. Aileen from Phases confirmed that TARC Hostel has broadband!!! I want!!! But it seems hard to apply, though she says that the girls' dorms are always empty. Need to find out actual details. I can't believe that we have to wait until this sem's results come out loh... because that would really be too late. Ivan has alternative place to stay if we go off to the dorm, but he needs to confirm by this week. Talking about "homes" I'm a member of Rice Bowl Journals now. See that little icon on the left? I have no idea what it's for, just that it sort of connects asian blogs all on one site. Law assignment over, maths assignment to do. Exams in 2 weeks. May be going down to KL next weekend to "see house". Or the seniors say, "look for house at the bus stop." Apparently that's where people put up notices for houses for rent. So, we shall see house and see bus stop. Haha... I'm tired of houses. I just wanna stay at home. Sigh. |
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March 27th, 2004
missed it! POSTED AT 01:13 PM Ok, I'm being really random here. What on earth am I doing? I'm writing random things in my blog for the fun of it! I think it's the exams... ahhaha.. exams in 2 weeks... Another random thought... I wanna name my girl (when I have one) Keisha! Hehe... and Keisha Castle-Hughes is acting in the next Star Wars movie thing. I'm hungry. I realised I blog more during exams. I also realise that I write less (as in stories) during exams. And I realise that I have a great big writer's block sitting on that story called "Timothy". Grr. |
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March 28th, 2004
Love Unrequited POSTED AT 12:24 AM Love Unrequited By Josh Hurst Laugh off all I have to say I'll say it again some other day Gouge my eyes or stab my back I've always known you had the knack Then let me kiss you on the lips Dance away with another love I'll quietly watch you from above You don't have to help me down I'm content to be around But your touch couldn't hurt So grace me with another smile I've been waiting for a while I'll tell you I love you You'll laugh in my face And I'll say it again tomorrow Listening to: Running Back To You (Altered Frequency) |
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March 28th, 2004
friends? POSTED AT 03:48 PM I know people have been adding me as friends on this tabulas thingy and I'm very happy that you do. Unfortunately (for you) I'm not in the business adding lots of people on my friends list... that's reserved for friends only posts to Yuin.  Hehe...So sorry yah. When I decide not to post anymore friends only posts, THEN I'll add the whole bunch of you, k? But don't worry, that doesn't mean you're not my friend, or that I don't check out what's happening with you on your blog. Anyways, thanks for the huggies!! Keep them coming! |
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March 28th, 2004
another one of those POSTED AT 03:56 PM  -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated You'rethe kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hey, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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March 28th, 2004
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March 29th, 2004
getting through to anna's brain is hard POSTED AT 01:07 PM Not going to go into detail, but generally what got through.All I'm saying is, maybe this may have affected you and you're reacting to it by trying to pretend that it really doesn't matter because you never expected it in the first place... and at the end of it, just the fact that I feel very unlovable. I've had to deal with all these thoughts again - eventhough I thought I had dealt with them - and again surrender this whole thing to God... My whole desire to be loved by a man is natural and ok to admit... but I myself have sinned because in my thoughts, I feel that "if only things worked out" - and that showed that I felt as if a relationship would actually solve this hunger I have. But at the end of the day, even if I end up single for the rest of my life, I'd have everything I need because I have Him. At the same time, I know that God knows me intimately and HE loves me and I'm pretty sure He wants to bless me so much more than I can imagine... Just want you to be aware of it and to start considering the REAL reasons for the things you do and say and the way you feel (not only in your relationships). I think we need to constantly discover what we really think about ourselves and work at realising what God thinks about us. Can you accept yourself for being the person you are and realise that God made you that way? And realise that at the end of the day, the reason you feel the way you do is because God created you for a relatinoship with Him, a relationship that has significance, that there is perfect love... [I] think that wherever you turn, you're going to face the same thing. Why? Because the part that hurts reminds you that you are looking in the wrong place. The hunger in you for that relationship with God is burning, and we try to fill that with our relationships with ppl, with purpose in work etc, but nothing will ever really satisfy... That's why I'm asking you to think a little deeper because unless you first acknowledge your SIN - that you have tried to fill that hunger for God with your friends or other things - you will never be able to fully repent of "trying to do life your own way". And we all do that. For the curious, I was struggling with a major crush. Hasn't happened for the longest of times. And I've realised that most of the times when I feel a strong pulling away from crowds, except for my closer friends, (but sometimes even from some of my closer friends) is when I've been drawing away from God. I'm a naturally introverted person (as you can see from those tests.. hehe) and I find it difficult loving people. I'm suspicious of people's motives and extreme sensitiveness makes me double-guess everyone's actions. I realise that when I'm "cold" I generally pull away from people because they don't meet up to what I want them to give me i.e. acceptance, total love. But when I'm "hot" I couldn't care less. I'm secure then. Oh, but God doesn't only drive it home once. He gives double dosage. This was posted in the GodSeekers community by LovlieVibe. You can read the whole article here, but I'm just going to abstract some parts. Michelle McKimmey Hammond put it best when she said, "God said Adam needed help. Help doing the assignment God gave him from the beginning - to be fruitful, multiply and have dominion over every living thing and subdue the earth. That was Adam's charge and God gave him a mate to help him complete his task." I am SO not ready for a relationship. And a crush flew out the window.
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March 29th, 2004
big 45 personality test POSTED AT 02:09 PM
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