ss_blog_claim=4593bf4d055b1d8fd23c6953dd143604 anna's
anna's inscribed logorrhea

Entries for April, 2004

April 1st, 2004

the past two days
POSTED AT 04:12 PM

Tuesday
Busy day! Had classes from 9 - 2.30, and then went home for lunch. After lunch, went back to college to settle CF $$ things... but couldn't be done because needed last minute paper work. ANYWAY, hung around. After CF went to makan dinner with CFers and then went to Ming's place (late as it turns out) to discuss the Family Night thing. Managed something like 1/2 a script. Sigh. Went home late. Checked mail, went to sleep. Slept like piggy. Haha.
Just realised that last Tues was probably my last big makan with the CFers!!

Wednesday
Classes... classes... got 49.5 out of 50 for my maths test!! Stupiaktednya, I missed 1/2 a mark for leaving in this stupid "x=-1" because log cannot be negative!! Hai.
Anyway, the CF farewell party was kind of cool... Sorry guys, I was a little "down" kah or whatever you call it (Joss keeps saying bad mood) cos
#1 I HATE THE BEACH (ie: sand and salt water)
#2 I DON'T LIKE KIDS SONGS... ESPECIALLY ACTION SONGS ON THE BEACH
#3 I DON'T LIKE GAMES EITHER
#4 I DON'T LIKE BBQ!!
Ahahah... so jadinya... a bit "down" "bad mood" "quiet".
No water involved (good thing) and I think the one who kena bullied the most was Ben loh. Hahah.. first was wrestled into the sea, and then had flour poured on him... and then salt water after that. (Not by me la... by his own year punya people.) Yuwei's camera was "floured" in the process... had a major "rescue" session for the camera... good thing it was not a "funeral"
My favourite shorts was torn. Don't know how. Just walking halfway and Wai Yi said "eh... your shorts has a hole". Good thing I brought change, because Ben said "bring clothes to change. It's not our fault if you get salty." In the end scare us for nothing. Haha.. but that's good.
After makan they had some sort of "testimonial" thingy... where the juniors said nice things about the seniors. So touched!
Ahah... buka my eyes about somethings too. Hehe...
That's all kua. When I think of other things then I'll say loh. Right now... got maths to do.

exam timetable
Company Law - 15 April, Thurs, 9 am.
Business Maths - 17 April, Sat, 9 am.
Listening to: switchfoot!!


April 1st, 2004

again...
POSTED AT 06:50 PM

Introverted (I) 75.86% Extroverted (E) 24.14%
Realistic (S) 63.89% Imaginative (N) 36.11%
Emotional (F) 52.63% Intellectual (T) 47.37%
Organized (J) 51.43% Easygoing (P) 48.57%
Your type is: ISFJ
You are a Guardian, possible professions include - counseling, ministry, library work, nursing , secretarial, curators, bookkeepers, dental hygienists, computer operator, personnel administrator, paralegal, real estate agent, artist, interior decorator, retail owner, musician, elementary school teacher, physical therapist, nurse, social worker, personnel counselor, alcohol/drug counselor.
Take Free Career Inventory Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com


April 2nd, 2004

Happy Birthday Ee Laine!!
POSTED AT 08:51 AM

Ooh... Ee Laine turns... 19 today. Nineteen, right?
(Blurnya... must be too early in the morning... hehe)
Today: maths tutorial and law lecture. Sigh.
Soon: Exams
Agenda: must study!
Oh anyway, I think yesterday's was the last of the personality tests... I got tired of doing them.
And we finally got the hostels Yay yay... got place to stay dy... don't need to stay in longkang! Hehe...
Ok, I need less randomness in my life. And I need to get ready for class.


April 3rd, 2004

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......
POSTED AT 05:00 PM

I'm supposed to be super happy to get a new computer. I'm now typing on my dad's laptop and I am SO not used to his keyboard!!! and besides that, I can't log into Lycos. Well... I CAN log into it.. but I can't get past the first page to read my mail. grr.............
Anyway what happened was Aunty Ban Leng gave us Sandra's old computer (hehe... pentium 3 is a big step up from Celeron!) and so I got Ben to come over and transfer some extra ram from the Celeron to the new one. And after that, we tried to turn on the thing... fiddle fiddle... windows 98 didn't load properly. So he said... maybe need to redo the windows install or something. Anyway dad said can... will put in XP. When he came back (like at 9 something... whole afternoon without the comp!!) tried to install XP but cannot!! The installed Windows had missing components...
So that's the WHOLE DAY without internet/computer! So status now... we finally got a start up disk from the church, just reformatted the computer and currently doing windows 98 setup. Hopefully after this, can upgrade to XP. Hai.
Please... let me be able to check my mail!! Stupid lycos.
Feeling: hot n frus


April 5th, 2004

yay!!!!!!!!
POSTED AT 08:35 AM

I am back online!!!!! With Windows XP!!!!!!! Happy....
Funny... how come I can't find Word?? Hm... I think I still have to install Microsoft Office.
Feeling: happy happy happy happy


April 5th, 2004

:-D
POSTED AT 12:14 PM

I love love love love love my new computer!! Whoo hoo!!! Hehe...
Windows XP is so interesting.
Shifted the other entry over to fictionpress now that I can upload. Go check out... New poems up.


April 7th, 2004

i have a stupid mouse
POSTED AT 11:05 PM

My mouse is being idiotic today...
My mata seems a bit bengkak... the left one. Pain... itchy... My ears are itchy...
Guess what? I am using my old comp again. My dad invited Uncle Michael Leong to come and help us setup the computer properly (no more tembaking stuff... ahaha.. I really need to learn some of this and not tembak tembak do) and he looked at it, shook his head and said, "Let me take it back and put new stuff for you." So... I wonder what the computer will come back as.
I missed by the fireplace last week because of the farewell. I think I'm missing it today because I'm so tired. Sorry.
Funny thing is I fell asleep in the afternoon as well. Hope I'm not falling sick. Exams next week.
Feeling: tired


April 8th, 2004

dum dee dum
POSTED AT 06:40 PM

I finished another maths past year! I only have 1 set of questions left to try before my maths paper next week. Yay... I love maths... I can do all 6 questions in about 2 hours... and we have 3 hours to do 4 questions. Well... some of the 6 questions I tembak do... don't really like it (like that stupid simplex tableau thing). Oh well, note to self: remember to do slowly and check over many times!!
I tend to press the calculator wrongly.
My mata is still bengkak and painful
It's very hot.
I have still a lot of things to study for Law.
Hai. Don't like exams
Listening to: tea and sympathy (jars of clay)
Feeling: satisfied


April 9th, 2004

take a break!
POSTED AT 05:53 PM

I'm tired of studying and my eyes are painful. Oh well, I get tired of studying very easily.
My mum is trying to pack me out of the house. Really. It's like... I'm leaving in May and she's already taking out boxes and discussing bedsheets! Oh well... I've packed the books (stories) I want to bring down and some of my CDs. Discussing what else we need to get. Ahah...
Thinking of joining some poetry competition thing... prize is 25 free chapbooks. (Meaning they print the book for me! Ahaha... their printing cost is like $2.75 per book or something) No entry fee. Wondering if it's worth it. Have to submit 16 - 40 poems (which I think I already have.)
Wondering why I'm not "feeling" the season. Maybe because of exams.
Anyway, here's my schedule again.
April
15 (Thurs) - Law Exam
17 (Sat) - Maths Exam
- Guys Night (emceeing)
19 (Mon) - Get new specs. Go shopping? Waste time? Write Tim!! Haha
24 (Sat) - Speak at youth.
Reading: Company Law - Walter Woon
Feeling: studious


April 10th, 2004

reflections
POSTED AT 12:32 AM

It's Good Friday and I'm not feeling a thing. Maybe because I've been studying Law the whole day (or attempting to anyway.) A friend has been having issues with faith, so I heard. Right.
What is faith?
Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1. If I remember rightly. Or was it the evidence of things hoped for, the substance of things not seen?
Anyway, the just shall live by faith. Right.
But what does it mean?
Sometimes I just don't know. Faith. "Lord, I believe. Help thou my unbelief." Job questioned God. Abraham's faith was accounted to him for righteousness. So many instances of "faith", so many vague statements. Maybe not vague to Bible scholars, but definitely vague to one like me.
(This reflection is being disturbed by multiple chats... so many TARCians online today!)
Can faith be defined? Quantified? Measured? I guess not really.
Sometimes I need something "solid" - something that says "this is this and that is that". But it's hard to find. So many things are relative. Or am I making it relative? Words are flighty. They can mean so many things. Just a slight rearrangement of words, or punctuation marks can change the whole meaning of the sentence. Maybe I'm reading into the lines too much. Makes it difficult to pinpoint the real meaning. Or to answer exam questions.
Feelings never stay the same. One day I wanna live my life for God, one day I just wanna do whatever I want. One day I sing "It's all about You." The next day I can't sing it... because I know it isn't. I have an active conscience, and sometimes that makes worship (as in the corporate singing times) hard because I don't want to sing words that I can't really mean. But sometimes I just sing it anyway because I love to sing. It becomes rote. Habit.
What is faith?
faith is holding on
faith is pressing on
even when you don't understand
even when you think you can't
He can
faith is believing in between the unbelief
the knowing in the midst of the doubt
faith is clinging on by the teeth
when everything is failing you
faith is knowing
who He is
He is
(c)annatan2004

Have a wonderful Good Friday and an even better Easter / Resurrection Sunday.
Listening to: John 3:16 (Joshua Yeoh)


April 10th, 2004

jars
POSTED AT 12:56 PM

Been listening to Who We Are Instead by Jars of Clay. I love the album! I think they're a really great band.
However, being highly poetic (their lyrics, not me) it seems their songs have layers I can't access beyond the music and melody. :_
Don't know if it's legal to do this... but going to post some of their lyrics up.

FAITH ENOUGH
"The world breaks every one and
afterward many are strong at the broken places"
-- from "A Farewell to Arms" by Ernest Hemingway


the ice is thin enough for walkin'
the rope is worn enough to climb
throat is dry enough for talkin'
world is crumblin', but i know why
world is crumblin', but i know why

storm is wild enough for sailing
bridge is weak enough to cross
this body frail enough for fighting
i'm home enough to know i'm lost
home enough to know i'm lost

Chorus:
it's just enough to be strong
in the broken places, in the broken places
it's just enough to be strong
should the world rely on faith tonight

land unfit enough for planting
barren enough to conceive
poor enough to gain the treasure
enough a cynic to believe
enough a cynic to believe

[CHORUS]

confused enough to know direction
sun eclipsed enough to shine
be still enough to finally tremble
see enough to know i'm blind
see enough to know i'm blind

[CHORUS x 2]

should the world rely on faith tonight
should the world rely on faith tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark
© 2003 Bridge Building Music, Inc.
Pogostick Music / BMI / All rights administered by Brentwood-Benson Music Publishing, Inc.
All rights reserved. Used by permission. (?)


LESSER THINGS

looks a lot like givin' up
peace will bring is a bitter cup
set our bodies down like offerings
while we pray to the god of the lesser things

if the wind should shake this house apart
the cradle hits the ground with a broken heart
we will say we never knew a thing
while we pray to the god of the lesser things

Chorus:
is there grace for the wayward heart
is there grace for the wayward heart
grace, grace

ash to ash and dust to dust
steel on steel or rain to rust
what mortal breath blood money brings
forth from the altar of the lesser things

is there grace for the wayward heart

is there grace for the wayward heart is there grace, grace

[CHORUS x 2]

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark
© 2003 Bridge Building Music, Inc.
Pogostick Music / BMI / All rights administered by Brentwood-Benson Music Publishing, Inc.
All rights reserved. Used by permission. (?)

Listening to: Jesus' Blood Never Failed Me Yet (JOC)


April 11th, 2004

strong winds
POSTED AT 10:50 PM

Went for dinner with relatives (dad's side) to celebrate my granma's birthday. I give up understanding what's happening at dinners. Aunty Jennifer will be talking about one thing, my dad and granpa talking about another and then they try to mix the conversation and I get all confused. Gah. Confusing! And it was so NOISY.... the wind was blowing everything every where! Lagi blur.
Hai.
No comments on Saturday. Scary faces work wonders.


April 12th, 2004

happy birthday, Charlotte!!
POSTED AT 11:50 PM

I have finished the first round of law!! Now I just need to memorise everything. Hai. I hate memorising. Tomorrow is... Tuesday... I have 2 days. Got time lah.
One more maths paper to try. Probably do that tomorrow... or Wednesday.
I am sleepy!! Don't know why... so sleepy... every afternoon, I lie on my bed and wanna fall asleep.
Can't wait for Saturday... 1 month of freedom! Hehe... that sounds so pathetic, right? Yeah. Okay... I'm talking nonsense here.
It's very hot. You know that? (sure you do)
Dum dee dum... erm... ok I'm blank. I had something to say, but I forgot what. Exams are not good for memory.
Gripe gripe gripe gripe
Still don't have any idea/themes on what to say for the 24th. Why me?!?!? Sigh. Reinstalled ICQ and forgot my #. Wen Ping got it for me. Haha... I'm so blur!! Installed RipCast.
Em... I think I better stop. Before I embarrass myself.
Hm. My title has nothing to do with my entry. Oh well.
Listening to: Dove Radio
Feeling: sleepy


April 13th, 2004

have a break...
POSTED AT 12:22 PM

and there's no Kit Kat in the house!
Memory work is tiring and I'm going really slowly. Hai.
I got my MyKad yesterday!! I look so cacated... and there was this really BIG pimple that shows on the IC! Haha...
Ok. Break time over.
Listening to: klove.com
Feeling: hungry


April 14th, 2004

end of the day again
POSTED AT 10:01 PM

What happened today?
I sat in my room and studied. I walked around the house. Some where around 3.40pm, there was this guy outside the house. So I went to take a look and he asked if we owned the CRV (or whatever its called) outside the house. I said no, probably the neighbour's. Anyway, I asked "why? Is there a problem?" and he said, that he wants to buy the number plate because he likes it. How strange is that?!
Tomorrow, law. Sigh. But yay, I'll be done with it then!
I want to go CD shopping!! Haha... the shopping mood is coming over me.


April 15th, 2004

Yay!!
POSTED AT 02:11 PM

Law exam is over!! Hehehe... It was ok. Yan Chun was there as one of the invigilators. Hah. There was this girl, sitting somewhere southwest of me who looked like she wanted to cry after the exam was over. Nose a little pinkish... little twitches to the eyes and mouth. Blinking every once in a while. Yeah. Either that, or she has some BIG piece of dust in her eyes.
And anyway, who on earth is Chidori Yanagi who's trying to add me on friendster???
I changed my windows theme to LOTR. Hehe...


April 16th, 2004

freaky dream
POSTED AT 05:19 PM

I had a really freaky dream last night. I was somehow wanting to change in my room, so I was trying to close the curtains. HOWEVER the curtains refused to close!! I would close it, and then it would open. Like it was really naughty. Suddenly I had the idea of spirits... so I was going to say "Get out in Jesus' name" but the minute I thought of that, I just froze in my dream. Then I woke up with a prickly sensation all over. I was so scared!
:/
Reading: the count of monte cristo
Listening to: klove.com


April 19th, 2004


POSTED AT 12:28 AM

I'm too lazy and tired to update. Will do so tomorrow. I'm very tired. Sigh.


April 19th, 2004

Saturday
POSTED AT 06:57 PM

Saturday started with Maths exam. Everything was okay... checked through paper everything. It was SO freezing cold that my teeth were chattering. Mr Bernard cut his hair SO short!!
Anyway, after the exam, was rejoicing over holidays when Wai Yi said, "so how did you do question 1?" and brought to my attention that it was SUCCEEDING activity, and not PRECEEDING activity in the schedule for the network diagram thingy. Sigh. Watch 25 marks fly away. Oh well.
I've finally finished my diploma!!
So went home, started packing, getting my things together, printing stuff. Went for lunch. Read The Count of Monte Cristo until 2pm and then we left for church. Reached church SO early I had nothing to do but walk around because I didn't bring anything to do. People started coming at about 3pm or so... most were late (as usual).
Wrapped plates in silver-foil-thing. Tried to get Ming-Y to discuss what to say when emceeing. Not quite successful. Tried to learn the song "Lost without You". Quite unsuccessful - everytime I learnt one part, when I got to the next, I forgot the first part. Sigh. Sadness.
Went to Yuin's place to "get ready".
Em... then we went back to church late. Went to eat, met Ben and Joss at the coffee shop so I ate with them. Anyway, rushed back to the church where everybody was panicking. One room was full of people putting make up, the other for getting the food ready. Wanted to practice the song, but Debbie wasn't there yet. Realised: NO MICS!! Oh bleah.
I think I'll not go into the rest. Let's just say while the guys were enjoying themselves, everything was SO disorganised. I was like "argh... what's happening!" Insufficient planning.
Big thanks to Judson for being so helpful and Henry too!
Sigh.
I guess it was okay. I just dislike making a fool of myself and all the kelam-kabut-ness.
Bleah.
I think I'll write about Sun in a separate post... later.
Reading: the count of monte cristo
Listening to: Elvis' Christmas Album. Right.


April 19th, 2004

oooohhhh it looks girly
POSTED AT 10:00 PM

Haha... it looks so pink and girly I'm not sure if I'll be able to stand it!!
Anyone wanna teach me HTML?? Hehe... thinking of revamping the tripod one and matching the two, so I don't think this scheme will be staying very long. Unless of course, I can't manage to do it.

Anyway.
Sunday
After church, went for lunch with Yuin-Y. Got some stuff from her - software, music (Ooh.. Pirates of the Carribean soundtrack!!) and so on... dropped by at the Senior Youth Retreat at the DTS house.
Went for the Whitford Concert... pretty good!
Anyway, reached home at about 11. Went online for about an hour.
And I wonder why I'm tired. Hah.

Today
I went out... went shopping with mummy and daddy... The effect of grocery shopping with parents is that you can make them buy junkfood. Hah. Got my koko crunch!!!
Listening to: So Much More - Casting Crowns


April 20th, 2004

GAH!
POSTED AT 02:14 PM

thisisjusttoofrustratingican'tgetittoworkright.
blah.
stupidstupidstupidstupidstupidhtml
stupidstupidstupidannafornotlearninghtml
gah
onedayiwilljusttrashthis.
thisisveryfrustratingandihopeyoufeelthefrustrationbyreadingthis.
Feeling: frustrated


April 20th, 2004

pinky pinky pinky and the brain
POSTED AT 09:41 PM

Okay. This pinkishness seems destined to stay longer than I originally planned... because I can't get the other template done right. Was considering blogspot rather seriously. If the HTML proves to be easier there. But I'm thinking of giving up on HTML anyway. Sigh. Someone wanna volunteer to teach me?

Watched Brother Bear! (I know I'm outdated) Pretty nice.
Okie... gonna go update some poems on fictionpress.


April 21st, 2004

Starbucks...
POSTED AT 08:02 PM

Yes, Anna was in Starbucks. I went to Gurney Plaza to meet up with fellow TARCians at three. Left the house at 2.40pm. First stop, fetch James from Wellmart. Yes, Anna has to be the driver. Sigh, guys. Stopped at Azuria and called Joss to find out that he was at the Jeti. Apparently the message that I'm not supposed to fetch him didn't reach me. So anyway, when we reached Gurney Plaza's Starbucks, Benedict, Kenny, Hui Wen and David were there already. Talked a bit for a while. When Ivan and Clarene turned up, we ordered drinks through Kenny, who works there, and got 30% discount. I had some mango something. Remember I don't drink coffee? Yeah.
Lay Hoon, Pam and Yi Lin turned up. Sat somewhere outside.
Anyway, we hung around, talked, took pictures, and Joss decided to turn up. When we were just about ready to go, I went over and talked to Lay Hoon for a while. Hm. I saw Chu Leik and a girl I think is called Joyce from Wen Ping's church. :p
Browsed around in MPH after that. They do NOT have casting crowns and mercy me and todd agnew. Sigh. They did have Audio Adrenaline, but I wasn't that interested. Anyway, bought new highlighter and marker pens.
Spent time walking here and there... went up to GSC but couldn't decide on anything nice to watch. Anyway, Clarene and Ivan had to leave. So we went all the way down... found David who had disappeared. Oh yeah, Joe joined us halfway too... and Steven.
Erm... okay, then we had dinner at Gurney Drive. And then we went home. That's it. I think.
Oh yeah, I wore my new yellow shirt, and Ben just so happened to wear his yellow shirt. Haha... that was cute.
Reading: Dune 1
Listening to: Live & Love - Switchfoot


April 22nd, 2004

perfect night :)
POSTED AT 11:37 PM

What did I do all day? I sat in front of my computer, staring at the screen. Dune is really rather interesting. Heh. Yuin says it gets exasperating after a while though. Well... I'm not exasperated yet. So. Read Dune, listen to music and ignore emails. That's what I'm doing. Erm.
Anyway, went out at nine just now for crepes with Francis and Yuin-Y. Nice to go out with your two best friends. Nice time talking. Nice crepes. It was wonderful. Just came back... Hm. It's 11.30pm. That's a long time. Just enjoyed myself. Nothing better than spending a night with two old friends. If Francis goes to KL we'll be able to meet up like that often too. If he goes to Singapore, that will be a bit harder to manage. Oh well. Life.
Life moves on.
Happy tonight.
Reading: Dune 1 [Frank Herbert]
Listening to: Hey you, I'm into Jesus [dctalk]
Feeling: happy, satisfied


April 23rd, 2004

Darn Yuin... you're gonna get me started.
POSTED AT 11:07 AM

Yuin:
Hey. Thanks for being my bestest bestest best friend. Heh... I love all the times we're talking online... face to face... about *ahem* and *ahem* ahhahahahha... We always seem to end up at Nando's eh? Still dreaming of the wonderful mashed potatoes at Chili's. Stay beautiful!

Francis:
What can I say? You've become the by-word in gentlemanliness. You're a great fellow at making people feel comfortable. I don't know, we don't seem to talk much now... did we ever talk a lot? But you've been one of the pillars in my life. Ahh... you're one of the best acting partners ever. I doubt I'll ever be as "deep" as you.

Wen Ping
What on earth would I do without you in TARC? I'd be like SO lost!! Thank you for always being there... when I was down, depressed, irritated, crazy, unreasonable and all that. I think you've really made a BIG impact in my life

Pauline
You ever come here? Dunno... anyways... I love your siao-ness and yet seriousness. Great times in class eh?

Wai Yi
Oh gosh... You know, I think you're one of the cutest people I've ever known... Hehe... And one of the most talented. You think me scary?? You should see yourself in class... wah... Wen Ping and Deanny so scared to kacau you!! Oh gosh, but you're fun. Here's to the next sem together!!

Josh
Hm. As Francis is the by-word in gentlemanliness... you're the by-word in music talents. It's like... "Wah... that keyboardist is like Josh!" Or something. I dunno... I find it more enjoyable talking to you online than when you're back here. Maybe I'm weird. But you're also deep. Deeper than I can hope to ever be.

Clarene
Ahem. You still owe me a story huh? You said... if I got a bf and you didn't know, you'd kill me... What about you huh??? When were you going to think of telling me?

Benedict
Funny, what you said in the autograph is true. Feels like we've been friends for a long time. Oh yeah... that comment again... time to cut your hair! Haha. You're a great person to talk to... who can give advice and encourage. Be encouraged yourself! May your dreams never die.

Joss
One word for you... siao lang!!! Wait, that's two... Hahah... every time I talk to you, I feel like I'm going a little crazier. But that's just you. You'd seem strange any other way. Remember... don't freak out the ladies!! I won't be there to help you!! Sorryler... my car still no radio. Blame my dad! Muahahahaha...

Eunice Lim
Gotten much closer to you this year. You're such a sweet person. Beware of the two strangely mad people in TARC. You better be careful. Hahahha... (They forbid me to warn you about what they're gonna do)

Ee Laine
Polopau!! You're a wonderful person. Thank you for being there for me in youth when there's no one else around.

Judson
You've really grown much huh? Still haven't gotten round to giving you advice on what to do with the fB worship team. Sorry. I really don't know either. Josh would always be the best person to ask. But I'll try anyway. When I get round to thinking.

Ah. Sesated. Dun wanna think already. Thank God for friends.
Reading: Dune 1 [Frank Herbert]
Listening to: I can only imagine [mercy me]
Feeling: thankful


April 23rd, 2004

Starsky and Hutch
POSTED AT 07:21 PM

Went out at 12 something with Wen Ping, Wai Yi, Deanny and Joss. Ate lunch at some Japanese restaurant, opposite the PCC building (the current one with the maybank thing), beside the vegetarian place. It was... okay. I'm not really a Japanese food freak. Ok lah.
Visited Baptist... and they had FFH!!!!! and not just ONE album, but TWO! Well, not very current albums. I found that one was from 1999, but the one I bought was the 2001 album. Didn't have the 2003 album. Oh well... better than nothing, right? I love FFH!! Haha...
Interesting thing was, I didn't have the cash with me, and they were telling me about being able to use your ATM card to pay. Some direct debit thing. Really. Your ATM card. It was so cool!! Haha... I know, I'm strange. Fun mah...
After lunch we went to Gurney Plaza and decided to watch Starsky and Hutch. We had a 'quarrel' over how it's pronounced... I got it right! Hah. Anyway, it's such a lame show... I mean it's funny, but quite lame also. Heh. After the show we lepaked around... visited MPH again, also went to the Big Bookshop (beside MPH) and guess what??? They were selling Archie Digest at 3 for RM12. What do you expect, I buy lah! Okay, whatever. Conclusion, I spent a lot today. (Whoops.)
Actually, I'm really dying to tell you guys what I did on Monday. But I wanted to surprise you all... Whatever. Wen Ping and Wai Yi freaked over it today. So did Joss on Wednesday. I don't know (don't remember either) if the others did la... didn't say anything much. Fran and Yuin lagi no reaction. But then again, they've known me longer. Hehe... intrigued yet?
Listening to: Because of Who You Are [ffh]
Feeling: happy happy happy, poor


April 25th, 2004

thank you, God
POSTED AT 12:15 AM

I got through tonight okay. More than okay. Good!
Maybe all the tears were worth it. I still feel like my eyes are bengkak from crying. I was writing at about nine something when I first started to get depressed. Was talking to Yong May (my cuzzie) online and wanted to cry. Couldn't contact Francis. Finally was able to call Ben at about 12. Cried on the phone. I hate crying, if you want to know. Especially in front of other people.
Despite the crying, had a really comfortable sleep. Didn't dream any of the silly things I've been dreaming lately. Just deep sleep. No dreams.
Woke up this morning, still pondering, trying to soul search. Heh. Started looking through tabulas and previous articles, and compiled them. Talked to Francis online... started crying again. Had to cook lunch... I think it tasted funny. Haha.. and that was just microwaving chicken with spaggheti mix to make spaggi. I was not born to cook.
Dropped David and friend at sports. Printed out my 'notes' - which was just a compilation of verses and articles - barely even arranged into any semblance of connection.
Really thank God that people were touched and blessed. It's good when you know that God has used you, even through your pain and tears.

faith enough [ joc ]
the ice is thin enough for walking
the rope is worn enough to climb...
storm is wild enough for sailing
bridge is weak enough to cross
this body frail enough for fighting
i'm home enough to know i'm lost...
it's just enough to be strong
in the broken places, in the broken places
it's just enough to be strong
should the world rely on faith tonight...
poor enough to gain the treasure
enough a cynic to believe...
confused enough to know direction...
see enough to know i'm blind

Interesting phraseology eh? I find it interesting. It's like... there's danger, uncertainty, and yet, it's enough to get through. The way is shaky, unclear, but we have faith enough to keep holding on, because He is there. We know Him enough to keep on going, but not enough that we can stop.
Enough a cynic to believe
If we were never cynical, never doubting, we'd never really believe, would we?
May God give us wings to fly.
Listening to: Lonely People [joc]
Feeling: satisfied


April 25th, 2004

The Magic of Love
POSTED AT 11:29 PM

Just came back from the show at PISA. It was pretty good. I'm not really into magic shows, but yeah, it was okay. Pretty stunning. Some I was guessing. Haha... ANYWAY, as a musical, though they say the storyline is tight, it isn't really. Well... most of it was, until the part where they put Lawrence in the water thing... if they want the secret... and they just put him in the water thing... and then they said something like 'he's going to die' or something... if he's going to die, then how are they going to get the secret??? And then Charlie and Priscilla were running around yelling "where's Lawrence" when they opened the contraption and found him missing, then Lawrence suddenly appears and the bad guys suddenly disappear. Hmmm... doesn't make much sense.
Songs were okay. However, couldn't really catch all of the words. They were swallowing their words when singing or something. Especially that Charlie guy. Or maybe it's just that Chinese accent thing. The one where it switches from really Sing/M'sian accent to slightly a little angmoh.
I guess what was really a let down was the fact that they said it was going to be translated to Chinese. My mum paid RM100 to buy good tickets for my chinese-speaking grandparents, but I noticed that during the show, the Chinese translation didn't turn up that often. When Ps Lawrence shared, it was all in English. And we were hoping (and praying) that this would be the day.
Oh well.
Anyway, water pipe burst in front of my neighbour's house sometime this morning. Couldn't get anyone from the house to come out. The water is still squirting now, and worse than ever. Don't know who to contact.


April 26th, 2004

the clear sky must be high and blue
POSTED AT 11:10 AM

Had koko crunch for breakfast. Yummy.
Just watched Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X) - the Movie. Was supposedly English with Japanese subtitles, but turned out Japanese with English subtitles.
Haha...
Wonder if I will be going out later.
Listening to: Take Me As I Am [ffh]


April 27th, 2004

reading...
POSTED AT 05:08 PM

Well, I'm done with Dune, and have started on House Atreides. I still think that this Frank Herbert based a lot of it (the Fremen part of it anyway) on Arabic Muslim believes. I mean, he has the Hajj and Ramadhan and Jihad. Right. Or maybe he just likes their culture and uses their words. I don't know.
Read on the Dream & Write boards that some 19 year old kid published a book called Eragon sometime last year. Supposedly very good, but very based on LOTR. And it's the first book of a trilogy. Still, would make an interesting read, won't it? Just gotta find it first.
And I've been reading so much I haven't been writing. That's always the compromise. Sigh.
Reading: House Atreides [Brian Herbert & Kevin Anderson]


April 28th, 2004

yeah...
POSTED AT 01:25 PM

Okay... I started playing Seven Kingdoms again last night. I know, it's an obscure game. But it's the only one my bro has installed so far and I'm far too lazy to install them myself! Anyway, I haven't played any computer games for like... err, a year or two? So I've pretty much forgotten how to play anything. Sigh.
Oh yeah, I saw a dog (think it's my neighbours) chasing a chicken a few days ago. Don't know where the chicken came from.
That's it for today!
If I'm "busy" online... then I'm playing games!
Reading: House Atreides [Brian Herbert & Kevin Anderson]
Listening to: casting crowns
Feeling: fun....


April 30th, 2004

warcraft III: reign of chaos
POSTED AT 12:26 AM

Okay... I'm not doing Seven Kingdoms anymore. I just installed Warcraft III: Reign of Chaos. It's a more well-known game... my cousin Yong Kuang reminded me that I have it - and never played it. Had some problems installing, but oh well... it's working now.
Yeah.
I did find out that if you message me on ICQ the Warcraft browser minimises. If you message/buzz on Y!M I can hear you and there's a minor disturbance when you log in/out. If you message on MSN, I don't know, because I put it on busy anyway, so there's no sound or pop-ups.
There. Anyway, I'll be going down to KL on Sat for holiday purposes (don't cry yet) and will be back either Monday or Tuesday. Don't know if I'll update until then.
That's it for today! Time to go and zzzzzzZZZZZZZ
Reading: House Atreides [Brian Herbert & Kevin Anderson]
Feeling: sleepy


April 30th, 2004

game v chat
POSTED AT 11:42 AM

According to Khay Xin, I'm so available that I have to pat toh with my brother. (This from the guy who's so free during hols that he starts studying. Right.)
According to Justin... since I post stupid survey bulletins on Friendster I need to get a life.
According to Keat Kim (and I'm just guessing here) I need to get my butt off Dune and WarCraft and finish my story.
According to my mum, I'm too free and I need to clear my room. (But half my room's in boxes!)
According to Benedict, when I'm bored I should miss-call people. Too bad... he kena lah.
According to me, now that my bro is OFF the comp... I need to decide if I should stay online and read Dune... (means I can chat. But not many chat-able people online!) or if I should play Warcraft... (means I don't chat. Unless too many people buzz me so I get off my game.)
Choices, choices. I don't like choices sometimes. Too many payoffs to consider.
Hmmm...


April 30th, 2004

disclaimer
POSTED AT 12:48 PM

Very interesting... take a look. And remember... it applies here!! Hahaha...
disclaimer


 User


natanna

 Navigation
Home Content
Profile Friends
Gallery Friends Of
Links Archives
Favorites stories
 Tagboard
your name:

url:

your message:

 Communities
 My Links
 Pages
 Categories