Entries for November, 2004
November 1st, 2004
presenting... POSTED AT 12:14 PM I used my thesaurus for the first time today!! Hehe... yeah... inscribed logorrhoea. (something like written verbosity?) Got tired of diarrhoeaing, and besides, it was kind of common... ahhahaha... ANYWAYS. Hm. Yes. Lunch with Fay on Sat was cool  Did I mention that yet? I'm currently sitting at my table, thinking of what to blog, with my audit text open on my lap, and tutorials on my little stand... Yesterday's practice was good... Act One is nearly nearly done... as in it's there.. but still have stuff to brush up on and perfect.. but it's there! And it's good! Hehe... we even practiced with the orchestra yesterday. We watched snippets of singing in the rain too... Jayne was saying that if you've been doing at one level, it's time for you to learn and by the end of this production be acting at a higher level. At first I was thinking, "that means my standards have dropped terribly... I don't know what I'm doing half the time, and I don't think I'm really staying in character at all..." And then I realised something... you know, for all the years I've been acting, this is the first time I'm doing a background/crowd/non-speaking role. And it's terribly different... and hard... But, something new! Yeah. My dad's on sabbatical dy... waiting for him to erm... start updating his blog? Hehe... Reading: auditing & assurance services in m'sia Listening to: Sooner or Later (switchfoot) talk to me!
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November 1st, 2004
Living Word! POSTED AT 12:40 PM 31 October 2004 We may think we know what is right, but the LORD is the judge of our motives. Proverbs 16:2 (CEV) You know, lots of times you read the Bible and just forget what you read. I admit I’ve been sort of “rushing” through my Bible readings lately so that I can get Canaanland vouchers. Whilst this additional spur to reading the Bible is good, it also kind of detracts from the reason why I read the Bible. Yeah, you have the head knowledge. I read the Bible to know God more. I read the Bible because it improves my walk with God. I read the Bible because it’s God’s love letter to me. I read the Bible to become more like Christ. Only sometimes, reading the Bible becomes a chore – an I-must-do-because-I-must-do thing. (Or is it only me who thinks that way?) And now it’s an I-must-read-and-memorise-because-I-want-to-go-buy-CDs thing. So this morning I’m reading Proverbs and it goes *splat* in my face: All the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes; but the LORD weigheth the spirits. (KJV) Erm, yeah. Then I turn on the computer and open my handy e-sword to parallel the different versions. And then I notice that there’s a Barnes notes entry on this: We are blind to our own faults, do not see ourselves as others see us. There is One who tries not the “ways” only, but the “spirits” Heb_4:12 : this is the true remedy against self-deceit. Ah. Cross reference – how nice! For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12 Only God sees us as we truly are, and no matter how correct or wrong we think our actions are, God sees through to our intentions and knows if our hearts are pure. And right after saying that God judges our motives, He gives us this verse that says: Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established. Or as the BBE version puts it: Put your works into the hands of the Lord, and your purposes will be made certain. Everything starts and ends with God. |
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November 2nd, 2004
November 2nd, 2004
yummie POSTED AT 11:44 PM Anyway, after class today had this really crazy discussion with my audit group members about our assessment tomorrow. We have to present and answer for one of our tutorial questions tomorrow for assessment. It's group effort so we were just discussing the answers... man... totally blurred out! Halfway through we were just like... talking nonsense... ahhaha... And then... Jo, Trix and I went shopping for food - for our sandwich party! Bought chicken ham and cheese and bread... nearly bought ice-cream as well... ahaha... [greedinya] So we came back to my room at about 6 pm and were waiting around. Jo decided not to makan with us... was going out to makan. Anyway, she popped back to bring us Kim Gary's French Toast! compliments of Andrew Tan. Ahahha... Not really la. He bought her 2 packs so she donated one to us before they went out for dinner. (Thank you, Andrew and Joanne!) Yeah, and so we were waiting in my room, using the net from about 6 something, and eating the french toast until nearly 7.30 and WAI YI was still MISSING. We were starting to panic. Situation: no roommate. Hand phone and purse in room. Only slippers normally used for bathroom missing. No towel. Recent rumour of rape in block A. Reaction: *arrghhh* Anyway, tried to call May to ask if she knew where Wai Yi was, but May wasn't answering. Trixie went back to change... and later Wai Yi appeared. She'd gone swimming. Ish. Ahah.. So we had sandwich party 2 in my room. Ham and cheese sandwiches with Trixie's sandwich maker! Yummy! Partiers: Anna, Wai Yi, Trixie and Eileen. Then we had yummy chocolate cake baked by Trix mom and bro! Super duper yummy, man... yeah.. it's her bday tomorrow... Happy birthday, girl! Then Jo came over to take the last one-and-a-half sanwiches we left for her... and some cake.. and to use my net... Sorry those people who I didn't reply (or who I said I'd be back but never came back)! Hehe... I wasn't AT the comp. Er. What else arr? I forgot... missing roommate... kim gary's... sandwich... discussion... Oh well... Well... uh. never mind. Reading: tom clancy won't finish.. ish. Listening to: big daddy weave |
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November 3rd, 2004
ANNOUNCEMENT POSTED AT 12:26 AM DEBORAH is coming HOME... tomorrow... wait... tonight... at 11 pm!! I think... hahahaha (and since it's past the 12am mark... happy birthday, Trixie! All over again... hehe) |
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November 3rd, 2004
-shorts- POSTED AT 11:28 AM Have gotten my study texts. They smell like rotten fish. Bad paper. Listening to Justin McRoberts. Want to find more. Need to continue with my Renewal Theology. Practice again tonight. CG tomorrow night. Bryan too. Currently writing the rain girl in a lame attempt for silverfish. Oh well, it started off as a nice idea... just that it isn't moving. |
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November 3rd, 2004
toooodddaaayyyy POSTED AT 07:02 PM She even said it was a good presentation! Anyway, after class I went to the libe to see the "book display" which was quite tercacated. And I found my book 10 of WHeel of Time! Yeah... Was showing it around to Pau and all that... and discovered Sujeyn (used to) read it too... He said he thinks there are planned 12 books. Ish... 2 more to go. But he says he's now more into the philosophical kind of books... and mentioned Sophie's World... and I'm like yeah, Jostein Gaarder... Maya was nice too... And he said I didn't know I can find people who like reading this kind of things in TARC or something like that. Ahhaha.. It's nice finding people with similar interests. I think I'm a little hyper today. Wrote some really crappy and nonsensical testimonials in Friendster... Okay... need to go for practice again... It's raining... it's ALWAYS raining. |
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November 5th, 2004
a whole new world? POSTED AT 11:57 AM He may wear a cross Just something I scribbled down last night before sleeping. Will probably work on it more some time later. Finally caught up with Bryan Tan (not the Bryan that visited the taggie...) and boy, is he tall. Yeah, but anyway, he's working doing sound and stuff in the entertainment line, and after all the talk about the lifestyle I was just wondering: how well can one balance the lure of the entertainment world (and lifestyle) against God's standards? In some ways it felt a little like mature-city-boy-meets-young-kampung-girl. And he's two years younger than me (if I remember right). Ah, I guess that's what KL does to you. All cityfied, self-confident... a tinge of suaveness? Haha... Hm. I've been here 6 months. How long till I get all cityfied? He says there are bands in KL that are good, just not recognised. Would like to go and hear... still regretting over missing Infest... it sounded really good... Rowen said it was good. And Jason (duh... he played?). He's worked with the likes of Disagree and Altered Frequency. And he said if the timing's right and all that... he might go tour with AF next year. Heh. Talking about music... I don't think I'll be making it to PS04. Sadness... 
Listening to: rockapella christmas |
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November 5th, 2004
lunch POSTED AT 02:57 PM  Ahahaha... very interesting people, really. Another thought I've been thinking about for a while, but never got round to asking... if they don't like each other that much (or talk as if they don't)... how come they're still so nice to each other face to face? I have work to do. Sigh. I don't want to do anything. Sigh. Why did I wake up so early today? Could've slept in longer right... stupid darned body clock. |
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November 6th, 2004
complimented POSTED AT 02:46 PM Have been thinking recently and have finally realised why some girls fall into the hands of conmen so easily. One unprecedented treat from a guy induces sweet feelings and makes one feel appreciated and accepted. A girl wants to be pampered and treated well. A girl wants guys to fetch her right to her doorstep (or as near as possible) and not be told things like "aiya... so far away... next time if you do this its more convenient for me." One night belanja-ed by an old friend, and the next I'm comparing his gentlemanly ways with the lame jokers in my college. Guys who can't even offer to drive me from the hostel to the college when they're already at the hostel and only going to go home after that. I mean... it's a what... less than 5 min drive? As compared to me walking 10 minutes. Sigh. Hhahahhaha... guys like Bryan spoil women's lib for girls like me. Had lunch with Trixie today at OM Fruits. Niiiccceee... Was actually thinking of Kenny Rodgers, but she said she's never been to OM... so... heh. When we came back, we saw this cat climbing up into the underneath of a car and just disappearing there. Like... woah! Hehe.. Hope I'm not carrying some stray cat in my boot! |
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November 8th, 2004
church hopping? POSTED AT 12:25 PM Pooooooor Edrian was sick... and he was still playing the bass! That's what you call commitment. |
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November 10th, 2004
ooo i can log in POSTED AT 10:23 AM But anyways. Met up with whole family yesterday... and it was so NOISY!! Everyone talking at the same time... canggihnya. Hahaha... Erm. CF yesterday: AGM. Then mamak in the rain. We're crazy, yes we are. Announcement No more updates from today till next Tues! Or Wed. I'm going ber-holidaying in Singapore! Yeah.... hehhe Oh yeah, and after that, I regret to say that I will not be updating so often, nor will I be online so often. I have made the (rather drastic) decision to share my internet line with Joanne in a (rather drastic) attempt at getting my lazy butt off the computer. Yeah. I've finally decided that I've been too lazy and that I need to cut down on my Internet addiction. Wahahahahahhahaha... side muse It's interesting that as a Penang CF of about 20 - 30 people we planned Christmas programmes for 800 people, but the KL CF of about 60 - 70 people is planning only for about 300 people. Doesn't make sense. But then again, it's a whole different culture. |
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November 17th, 2004
Ah. Home. Sort of. POSTED AT 09:21 AM Had breakfast in PJ with family. Lunch at Nando’s (being the only person who knows the way helps) and then off in the bus at 2.30pm. Reached Singapore (after hassle of immigration – but the new scan-able passports are cool!) at about 8 and then dinner with Aunty Julia and persons we are staying with at Newton somethingy. Aunty Julia is a scary driver. She goes, “how to get there arr? I don’t know the road.” Or something. Made interesting discovery. I’ve brought a pen, but not any paper. I’ll have to rely on memory then. Friday Sentosa! It’s hot and hot and hot and hot. Sigh. But the dolphin lagoon thing was cool (smart dolphins!) and we went to the underwater world again. Besides that David and I went to Fort Siloso… and it was tiring, tiring, hot and hot. Sigh. But interesting anyway. Musical fountain show thing at night… we wasted time just sitting and waiting for it to start, but oh well. It was very interesting. Concept was kind of simple though. Water and lights and music. Project moving cartoon on sheet/wall of water. Saturday Went to Orchard road. Do you know, they have Christmas decorations and Christmas music blaring in November?! Yeah. Well, visited Aunty Julia at the office, and met Francis at Borders. Lunch at McD’s. They have this point system thingy with the ez-link card (it’s a MRT/bus debit card) where you can pay for your McD’s with your card and collect points. With enough points, you get free food. Oh. And McD’s in Singapore doesn’t have bubur ayam and it doesn’t sell fried chicken. They have McWings though. Didn’t buy anything in Orchard road except food because things were crazily expensive – and no sales. Had dinner at some steamboat place with Francis and Aunty Julia and then attempted to watch the buskers performance. It was too crowded though, so we just went home. Later on, Francis said that the main bulk of the performance was on the opposite side of the road. How dumb. Sunday City Harvest Church at Singapore’s indoor stadium. The one in Australia was much bigger. It was… okay. Visited Aunty Julia, Jonathan and grandparents… and the dog, Pizza. Jonathan’s doing some graphic thingy now… (wow, he’s 17 and in college... time passes) and his webbie’s here. Shopping at Heartland Mall where I got a new bag! Yeah… and a coat. Later on back in Aunty Julia’s was given another bag… so… 2 bags! Had dinner with everyone at NUSS in Suntec City. Monday After walking through Junction 8 Mall about 6 times to get to the MRT station, we finally visited the mall and bought some stuff. I got new earrings! But I’m not supposed to wear them until Christmas though… Christmas present mah… hehe. Back to Aunty Julia’s where Deb and I get new rings (ooh, diamond rings eh…) and new second-hand handbags. After all that, and saying goodbye and everything, we went to the Night Safari. Rather interesting, though animals are just not my thing. Tuesday Take the 9 am bus back to KL through immigration hassle and traffic jam to finally arrive at Pudu nearing 4 in the afternoon. Say sad goodbyes (were they sad? Hehe) and leave on the LRT back to the hostel! It’s the end of the hols, and I finally finish off my AGM minutes and attempt my Audit tutorials. Will not be seeing family for 2 months (until I go home in January) and will not be seeing Deb for 2 years (unless I visit her in Australia). Oh. I forgot to mention… Deb finally pierced her ears!! Haha… =] |
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November 17th, 2004
cuzzies unite! POSTED AT 09:08 PM Ah. I did an attempted timetable and am now wondering if I'm being a little bit too ambitious at the moment, knowing how lazy I am, and seeing how I've packed everything in. Haha.. we shall see. I picked up my Renewal Theology again just now... and I think it's going to be exciting to finish reading it. Yes and I finally memorised Psalm 1. So... me shall go a-looking for Lindy to recite and get me voucher! (Wait for a few weeks or so before I get round to it. Darn this procrastination.) Today was a good day. The sun shone and all my clothes dried. (Stupid reason, I know.) Listening to: Song for Joshua by Joshua |
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November 18th, 2004
tiiirreed POSTED AT 05:37 PM After that lecture... lunch... libe... tutorials... and then supposedly another lecture for raya replacement (can you believe all by the same lecturer for the same subject? overdose!) but when we went to that last lecture hall, there were some other students inside for their normal lecture... so our lecturer cancelled his replacement. Me thinks me'll do a spot of writing. Hopefully I come up with something. Haha... |
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November 18th, 2004
night market reflection POSTED AT 10:31 PM No give. Ended up saying "yes" to the pasar malam (so not me!) and endured nearly 2 hours of boredom. At least I bought 5 pears and 50 sweets. And had time to reflect. First of all, why I hate pasar malams: 1. Hot 2. Crowded 3. Smelly (It's either rubbish smell or generator gas. And bodies) 4. Tiring 5. And the fact that some people must stop at almost every stall, and then decide not to buy (so why stop?!?) and when going to buy, spend ages deciding. Ergh. And also the things I buy: Clothes and accessories. Very hard to buy. The thing is, I want things that are woman-ish (I suppose lady-like is a better word) and yet practical. Some thing more serious and elegant and stylish, and yet not formal. And NOT cutesy. I hate cutesy. I like semi-casual, if there's such a thing. Something casual, yet nice enough to wear around... like say if I suddenly end up in the shopping mall, or in some nice restaurant. Something that fits all occasions. (Hah. Dream on.) I guess that's why I like jeans. It's convenient, practical, casual... but it's not really stylish, nor ladylike. And skirts bug me because it's hard to sit. Ergh. Clothes just bug me. I think I shall go snuggle and read. I'm tired. |
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November 19th, 2004
satisfied POSTED AT 05:33 PM I'm still stuck on The Rain Girl though. Oh well. Have 3 yummy new books from the libe - Literature of Asia, Novelists in Interview and The Ninja. And I wrapped my first Christmas present today! |
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November 20th, 2004
who am I not? POSTED AT 11:51 AM Appearance 1: hardworking [snippets] JA: and, err....gotta do some catching up in my studies... i've been kinda slacking already.... me: ahha... you are talking to the wrong person man... i'm slacking so super much!! hahah JA: YOU?! me: yes, me!! JA: dont believe u!! .... JA: aiks...i really can't believe u're one of them like me!! me: hard to believe meh??? why leh? JA: haha...coz, erm... u dont look like u're that lazy... =D me: hmm.. i don't look lazy??? interesting.. how does one look lazy? JA: err...ok, not "look" la... i mean, aiyah... how to say. nvm, u get the picture isnt it... haha DO: yit yee asked me if u got scold ppl wan or not me: ahhahahhah... me: what did u say? DO: to make sure she does something, i said yes me: ahahhaha... but i'm not doing anything myself me: i thot she's the serious one... must make her do thigns one meh me: u arr.... make me sound bad onli DO: hehe.. don't be like that lar.. me: *grin* DO: actually everyone perceives that u r a hardworking person me: mee?????? DO: yup. DO: don't believe me? DO: ur face projects that u alwiz complete ur tasks me: errr ok... Appearance 2: confident Especially during English presentation. Maybe because I'm fluent in the language Appearance 3: scary Err... I have an angry face. Hahahah... But the one that stands out the most (as in people talk about it more) is... I'm hardworking!!!! *rolls all over the floor laughing like some hysterical hyena* Which reminds me, I'm supposed to be studying according to my brand new timetable. *grinz* When death stares you in the face The reality of death sometimes scares me. Trixie's friend is in the hospital after an accident where two of the passengers (Trixie's friend's friend's mother and brother) were killed. And she was supposed to be in that car. She's upset over Christians in her church who blame her friend for being in that car... "why did you this.. and that... you shouldn't have this... and that." Why is it that supposedly mature Christians must always push the blame on the poor victims when bad things happen? It's like another Job scenario. You should repent... you've sinned... Don't they read their Bibles? I always have this strange notion that if God's saved you, it means you're in for something big that you have to fulfil. Or not why save you? Why save Trix and her friend? Because there's something planned for them that only they can fulfil. No? Another thing that struck me is my inability to show emotions when faced with death. May said that when Trixie told her, she cried as well. The most I could come up with was, "is she okay? are you okay?" When Praeme's mom passed I couldn't cry either. Maybe because I've never lost someone really close to me, I've not felt grief. I feel bad, yes. I feel concerned over my friend's loss and trauma. But I've not experienced grief - not the grief that makes you cry. Or maybe I shield myself too much. |
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November 24th, 2004
Happy Baptism Joanne!! (post-dated) POSTED AT 12:15 AM So… DUMC was… a large vibrant charismatic church. Service started off with worship, baptism and then membership install then the sermon. After church, Joanne, Rowen, Wai Loon and I went to lunch with Joanne’s cell group members. Coincidentally, her cell leader is also called Andrew. During lunch, Rowen and Wai Loon were discussing guns. Jo and I basically just… crapped. Hahah… After that Andrew dropped me at SIB for practice and Rowen and Joanne back at Setapak. Of toned bodies We had our first full dress run through and tech run for sound/mics. It was cool! Everything’s like almost almost there. There’s this one part where they have a spirit dance kind of thing, and previously we’d only seen two girls do it, and it was woah! But then tonight there was this guy as well and it was like woah!!!!!!!!!!!!! With two thumbs up. There was so much energy. Every movement was strong and firm and precise. I wanna dance like that… *dreams* But I have a lazy body and soft movements. Grr… all those toned bodies and strength. I WANT but I lazy. Ish. Practice ended early and I went to Trixie’s to go bercakaping. =] |
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November 24th, 2004
Earned Hard Cash (post-dated) POSTED AT 12:16 AM Audit discussion was another session of nonsense. We did manage to come up with some sort of sales system flowchart plus descriptions and company background kind of thing, but we were still kind of confused so we went to find our tutor. She asked a few rather tough questions and now we have to go back and sorta redo the thingy to really match up our company’s business, the sales system and the level of computerisation. Basically what we did was that we just hentam-ed our way through and there was not much of a gelling between the different parts. We had dinner at Joey’s then *grinz* and then practice again. I find practices are getting less intense and shorter too as the time gets nearer. We spent nearly half the time doing improvisations and warm ups rather than straight practicing. But it really helped. I feel very productive and blessed today. Thank You, God! (I do wish my net’s back though… It’s still in Jo’s room and she’s not in… I miss chatting with you!!!) |
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November 24th, 2004
ah. POSTED AT 12:35 AM Today was CF day! My computer classes thingy finally started this week, so I was out from like 7.45 am... and then went for lunch and then lecture. After lecture, we discussed the Audit assignment until roughly 6.30pm and then I went for CF. Tiring huh? After CF we had dinner/supper at the same old mamak place. Err. So I'm tired out right now, and reading a Christmas script that doesn't seem to be making much sense at the moment. Listening to: blessing and honour [joshua yeoh] |
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November 26th, 2004
frustrations POSTED AT 01:42 AM A little frus with our audit tutor because we went to ask her about our flowchart for the assignment. First thing she said was that she didn't really know the flowchart because it wasn't taught by her in lecture. And then when we just wanted her to take a brief look at our flowchart to tell us if we were doing the right thing and using the symbols right, she didn't want to help at all. Everything she said was so ambiguous. We were about to assume that everything was okay when someone in my group had the bright idea to bring it to ask the lecturer... and we found out that there were SO many things wrong. Sigh. Like hello, tutor... you're supposed to give some guidance! Am having those why-must-I-mix-with-them-when-I-have-nothing-to-say-to-them feelings again. They find the people I find interesting boring. I find the things they talk about... useless. Am also wondering, once again, if I'm too jaded with God. No, I've never been on a mission trip. But I've heard too much about them that things don't surprise me. Listen to them and they go like wah... so teruk... so this... so that... can one arr? And I'm saying to myself inside of course la. You think what? Kampung people like city people meh? Maybe I have too much head knowledge that I can't care enough. Or maybe I'm too comfortable with my comforts. Uncomfortable feelings. I'm at one of those stages where I think I know I need to be doing something, but I'm not. Realised also that I find many "funny" things seriously unfunny and distasteful. Like even the idea of a show like White Chicks, which happened to be one of the topics of discussion at after-CG mamak. Maybe I shouldn't have gone. Should have stayed back and done all this darned paperwork. I need sleep. Good night. |
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November 26th, 2004
muuuuzik POSTED AT 02:23 PM Just back from some talk in Wisma MCA (compulsory kononnya) and it was just a waste of my morning. Oh well. Always a cost for a free lunch. New pix from dad. Attempt accessing here. It should work I think. Well, better get some work done.
Listening to: only hope [switchfoot] |
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