Entries for August, 2005
August 2nd, 2005
ewo POSTED AT 08:09 PM I have the weirdest sickness in history. You know most people start with sniffles, blocked nose, coughing and sneezing before succumbing to fever etc. I started with a slightly scratchy throat, and morning sinus... and fall straight into a fever. After that, my nose gets blocked, then I lose my voice... and only after all that is done do I start sneezing. It's almost all opposite!? Sheesh. Oh, by the way, I'm back. I think. Haha. talk to me!
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August 3rd, 2005
random? POSTED AT 09:31 PM I had ideas of what to blog just now. But then my internet went wonky and I went to do other things... and I just plain forgot. Ish. Anyone wants a packet of powdered Cream of Mushroom soup? I don't think I'll be drinking it - lately milky stuff has been giving me weird stomach convolutions. I mean, milk's always made me tummy weird. But it's getting weirder now, so I'll stay off the milk, thank you. Been listening to Acoustic Gestures by Az Samad. Very nice. I want! I wonder how much it costs... and where to get it. Just listened to Arriving (Chris Tomlin) too... nice nice... I love the third track! Uhm... the 2nd last track or so was... funny though. Haha.. I mean, I didn't really like it that much. Also been listening to Fasollado Singers (go fireBRANDS!) Super duper good track (from last year's) is the What Child / O Come Emmanuel Song. *sighs* Me wonders if I could make people go carolling in TBR this year. Part of the Christmas night. Hahahahahahahaha... *dreams on* |
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August 4th, 2005
josh, you shouldn't get me started... POSTED AT 07:22 PM
personality tests by similarminds.com lol Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion results were very low which suggests you are extremely reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive. trait snapshot: messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer Phobic. Oh yes... phobic. Hahaha. |
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August 5th, 2005
*crosses fingers* POSTED AT 11:10 PM Edrian asked before cell today, "Are you free tomorrow night?" After thinking for a while, I replied, "Yeah, I should be." Then he goes, "May be going to the Jazz Festival at Mont Kiara tomorrow. Want to come?"
Whee. But he said he'll confirm tomorrow - plans are not confirmed yet. Oh,
and my moral presentation's finally over! *dances little jigs around
the room* She said we were "pretty well prepared" though I think we
were just uhm... crapping our way through. Haha. |
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August 7th, 2005
Sunrise Jazz & Rhythm Fest 2005 POSTED AT 02:16 PM Yeah, so we went. Whee... lol Left at around 9 something from Setapak... missed the first half of GruvAvenue's set. They were okay. Drums, keys, double bass, sax and a singer. I didn't really like the singer though. Haha. I mean, her voice was nice and all that... but I guess I just didn't like the way she phrased. Very disjointed and all that. And I couldn't catch half of what she was singing. (Not like I'm very much better, but... bleah.) Bla bla bla... the emcee fella had a lot to say... and a lot of freebies to give out... and then... they had Mr Gambus! Whee... Very high energy and yet very cultural. For some reason or other, these cultural-ly stuff seems to be very interesting and important to me at this point of time. Why? I dunno. But it's nice nice nice nice nice... and it's going into my wishlist! The keys guy was superb (Eric Lee) complete with very interesting facial expressions (cute too... lol) and the drummer (John Thomas) had this kiddy-in-a-hyper-dream expression. Actually, in certain places he looked a bit like Isaac Lim. (mischievious face) Waiting for pix
from Edrian! "Official photographer" konon. He had this big fat camera
and walked right in to the cordoned off "back stage" thingy and no one
stopped him. Listening to: jars - furthermore from the stage |
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August 7th, 2005
friendlyness factor POSTED AT 10:58 PM in thoughts X asked about my friends who came to church, and I said that they'd decided to settle at City Harvest because it's more fun. He replied that yeah - cos it's a youth church, and mentioned that the church wasn't really getting a lot of college / youth nowadays. I was thinking maybe because you guys don't make it conducive to come? This
is the same guy was the one who, when I asked if there was anyone staying at
JGK side who could possibly fetch Eli to church, answered, "Tell her to
take the bus."
A single girl, waiting for the bus, on a deserted Sunday morning. What
the... Not even an "I'll ask around," or an "I know someone who stays
there, you can try calling..." So anyways, I IMed an old Sibu friend, now in the same church (and transportless), who's staying in that general vicinity (opposite the road from her apartment), and he managed to arrange transport with his cell group members. In fact, he even made me feel guilty for not fetching her myself. (It's a 15 min drive there, in the opposite direction from church, so that would make it 35 mins to church instead of 5, and so I'm lazy, yeah. Whoops.) Okay,
so I admit I'm not being the best of church members either. But if you
want to say that youths are not coming, shouldn't you check and see if
there're any problems / barriers to them coming and try to help solve
it? There was another youth leader who said, "I don't believe in making it too easy for youth to come to church. Where's the commitment?" Right. Isn't that a little cart-before-horse? Doesn't it flow from attendance-->commitment? I'm prolly just being a problem kid. You can walk into church
all alone, wave at a few people you have met before, walk by them very
obviously alone, not get an invite to sit with them and head off to sit
alone. All this, without anyone really noticing. Contrary to popular
youth culture, even after meeting some of them at the collegian group
and tagging along with Edrian to some after-church makans, I still do
not know any of their phone numbers. Me, being typical problem kid
haven't asked for two basic reasons. Maybe
this is good for me. I'm getting a better feel of how it is to be an
outsider in the church after being an insider kind of insider for a
really long time. Or maybe it'll be good practice for my "I'm Tough"
face, my "I'll Be Fine Really - I'm Independent" stance or even my "Hi
- I'm Miss Bubbly-Extraverted, Can-I-Be-Your-Friend" outlook. *shrugs*
Hmm... yes, definitely it'll be great practice for the last. I'm not comparing this to other churches. In the other church we came as a group (because it was far) and left as a group. Still minimal interaction. In the other other church I'd been there since forever and people knew me who I *embarassingly* don't know but I was the insider-outsider, if that makes sense. Fine, so it's always been my fault. I've always been the outsider even in the familiar. Sue me. I shouldn't be ranting then. But I figure, if it translates not just to me, but to others then maybe there is something wrong, not just with me (myself and I) but with the church. We should be doing something. And yes, I know, since I've talked so much, I should do something as well. I'll just go put on my "Hi, I'm Pretending To Know Everyone" face, practice a little "Whee, I'm Hyper, Do I know You? Let's Be Friends" conversations, do some "I Wanna Be Involved" exercises and use that "I've Belong Here Since Forever" walk. It'll just be a matter of time. p.s. someone was supposed to call me about that drama thing. someone
who was just here. LOL. I wonder if you know what I'm talking about.
But oh well, if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen... and it'll be
put down as another miscommunication because Alex said someone would call, and I've been waiting. For a week. Or two. Maybe I should just leave a note in his blog. Hmm. |
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August 8th, 2005
kudos POSTED AT 06:14 PM After the rant, I figured I should give a shout out to nice guys. LOL. (Hmm... I've been using that a lot lately. Wonder why.) David Lim Solomon Oon Ivan Lim Edrian Oh. You know what? I just realised something. My CD case is FULL! Is that good or bad? Heh. Reading: BIM textbook Listening to: Troubled Heart - Kutless |
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(MGC)August 10th, 2005
Craziness! POSTED AT 11:09 AM 1) Whee... Az was here! Lols. 2) On Sat, Mr Tan
(from SAD) said that they were looking for volunteers to help out at
some *special kids* merdeka celebration organised by Rotary club for
this coming sat (13 Aug). I remembered Kum Hoe asking about stuff like
that before, so I just asked for extra information. They were looking
for 50 people, FAU was sending around 30... so he said "Why don't you
get the CF to send 20 ppl?" (he's a Christian, but I never got round to
asking what church he's at). I said I'd ask. He said to be more
aggressive. (?) 3) I'm thinking of BK-ing today. But Trix is down in Ipoh for scholarship interview. And Solo needs to be back early. Manfred said he might go. Oh wells. "/ To go or not to go? To sugar-high or not to sugar-high? but I need to staaarrdeeeee.... One more month to exams! 4) I have class in 50 mins. And I'm still in my pj's. And I need lunch. Erm. Gotta run.
[edit: 12:30pm] It happened AGAIN, I went to class... sat around, there were 3 other people. Wondered why our big friendly photostat manager cum class rep (or busybody?) wasn't there. Messaged him. He called back to say that class was cancelled... and he didn't tell those of us who were there because he didn't have our phone numbers. *sigh* Oh well, at least I managed to finally pass Rowen's prezzie to Sui Li to pass to him at church. Reading: starwars! :P Listening to: Stay [disagree] Feeling: hungwee |
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August 11th, 2005
ergh...haze POSTED AT 02:43 PM We were in the car yesterday, driving to Carrefour for a BK session. The aircon was cranked up, and the skies were "cloudy". The road was particularly lined with trees at one section, and Solomon said, "Look, we're in Genting." I agreed - only that Genting clouds are normally white, rather than this weird yellowish colour. Yesterday's
BK session was pretty successful - finished a rather long chapter kept
expenditure to only RM2 and downed 36 teaspoonsful of sugar. Then I
couldn't sleep. Heh.Wondering if I should go there again today
(like now) for the nice aircon and relatively clean (filtered?) air.
But too much sugar intake would be... hazardous. Would it be polite to SMS the SAD manager? Or should I call? I
don't think I want to walk 20 minutes in the haze there and back. "/ Or
maybe it can wait until tomorrow when I go for moral. I'm not sure.
Ergh. The air pollutant index
thingy says KL's index is 321 (Hazardous, habuk halus). Assuming that
Setapak's included in the KL area. I can't find any other areas closer
to home, unless you count Gombak at 234 (Sorry, my geography's pretty
bad). Penang's only at 45 and Sibu's at 74. Why hasn't TARC cancelled classes yet?! |
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August 13th, 2005
beyond POSTED AT 12:05 AM in thoughts Sound the shofar Sound the shofar Break down the walls Break down the mounts There's just something so uplifting at the sound of the shofar, eh? Lols. Today's cell word was titled Beyond our Dreams. Very nice sounding and all that, eh? What an interesting thing to come up, just when I'd been browsing through Kiss of Heaven again.
There's this part there that says to write down your dreams, y'know? I
did, last year, when I first came up ( mean, down). (When Francis gave
me the book and I read it.) But that got lost somewhere in the last
comp crash. So, I was thinking about doing it again, but never got round to it. And here we go, coming round in cell with the issue of dreams. What more do you think God wants to do in our church, cell and your personal life? What more? I know, I feel entirely so selfish when I start ignoring what God wants to do in church and cell, and start concentrating on li'l ole me. But let's indulge. What do you dream of? Btw, I dreamt of rain last night. Haha. What do I dream of? In
my wildest dreams, I'm back in Penang, back in comfortable ole FGA. I'm
back in my li'l island - with one difference. I'll be having a production house of sorts (don't know what you call those thingies) producing our own self-written, self-directed, very professionally done movies. Yes, MOVIES. "/ I'd have published novels. Interesting novels. Nice novels.
Deep, artsy thoughtful novels. As an aside, I chatted with Sharon the
other day, and she asked how my attempted novel's coming along and
asked what it was about. I said it's turning out to be very teenage
romance / angst and she said that she'd thought I would write something
more artsy and thoughtful. I told her I'd like to, but I don't have the
skills and patience to do that yet. And then she said, well maybe the
angsty part will help with getting the thoughtful mood later on. We'd have done an album. I wouldn't want to do one alone,
'cause I'd rather be singing the harmonies than belting it out alone.
Besides, I don't have that range. And I'd have written songs.
Yeah, Edrian's been asking "so when are you going to write songs ah?"
I'd like to whack him back with "What about you leh?" Josh's been
asking since last year too. Lol. (Hm. I said we. Who's we?) But I figured something from last night's Christmas Celebration
meeting. I'm bad at organising meetings. I get sidetracked a lot, and
don't have that control. Nopes, I don't think I was born a very good organiser or facilitator. I drift. Too much. |
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August 13th, 2005
BR: loamhedge POSTED AT 06:15 PM in book review Being the *naughty* girl that I am, I picked up a book at the library the other day. (Okay, so it was three, but the Agatha Christie doesn't count. Heh) So, being very erm... uninspired today (no sugar rush... can't ingest hard words) I decided to do a brief review on Loamhedge by Brian Jacques. This was my first time picking up any of Jacques works (and even remembering seeing them) and was pretty surprised to find out that he has at least a dozen or so novels on Redwall, this fictional animal-abbey thing. Yeah, it's a book about animals, and a very well-written and funny one at that. It reminds me of something like a mix between that other animal story (can't remember the name... there were toads and Vixen and some foxes and badgers, and poor Mole got killed by a swarm of rats - it was a book series that was made into a cartoon) and David Edding's droll, rather tongue-in-cheek writing. One passage that got me laughing out loud was when Fenna asked Horty, her crazy hare friend what was in the strawberry surprise that he just cooked up. He answers, "Oh, the strawberry surprise? I made it with some dried apple, preserved plums an' a piece of fruitcake I found at the bottom of a ration pack. There ain't a flamin' strawberry in the whole thing - that's the surprise." Anyway, this novel tells of the story of a young haremaid Martha Braebuck and how her brother, Horty and his friends set out on a long journey to find a cure for her paralysed legs. It's a novel that makes you laugh at the silliness of young children, gasp at the dangers that brash teens face unknowingly and weep when death curls its cold fingers around brave heroes. It's something of a caliber of which I would like to write someday. |
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August 14th, 2005
dap dee dee dap dap! POSTED AT 02:50 PM Okie... yesterday. Erm. Went for the rotary thingy... kena conned la I think into doing odd jobs (arrange chair... pass out refreshment... pass out this and that...) Oh well. It was at the Safety Driving Centre in PJ. Saw Wai Peng there. Don't think he saw us though. Haha. Bla bla... had this free medical screening thing where they took my blood pressure. It's 100/70. Lols. And my pulse is 100!! The lady was like... "are you very nervous?" Me: "No... should be normal lah. My mum's also very fast one." Came back early, and saw Eu Jin walking to cell. Hai... okaylah... after one whole month or more... have to be "nice" and go to cell (the TARC one - I usually go to the adults one on Friday nights) Oh yes... went to the final night of the Jazz festival yesterday with Edrian, Jong Chern and Hon Yau. Chunted. *sigh* Reached around 10pm to hear Steve Thornton
- some percussionny stuff. That John Thomas was on drums again and Eric
Lee on keys.
After that was some Jordan Rivers jazz thingy which I didn't find too interesting. Maybe David would have liked it better - had a lot of those guit solos. And then... Aseana Percussion Unit (APU)! They were very very good. Whee... lols. Okay, so maybe I'm turning into a guy watcher (eh, musical guys good catch leh...) but there's this reeeaally cute chinese guy in dreadlocks. Lol. There was this other chinese man... looks like Sammo Hung... Hahaha... All very
lively and fun. Haha. There was this young girl who sang too.. Prema.
Her voice was good - better than the other woman earlier, and better
than the one last week Towards the end, it was getting kind of wild... the last nights are always wild, no? There'd been a whole exodus of people to the front, where we'd been sitting on the floor, to dance. So I ditched the whole seething mass, leaving Jong Chern and Hon Yau still standing in front, to where Edrian was at the tables by the side. Then I spotted poor Ray acting as "penjaga beg" at the side and went to chat for a while. Yeah, but it was good. |
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But me thinks she was shy. August 14th, 2005
my bro... POSTED AT 09:10 PM is very farnee. I put his pic on my msn (go see... haha). The following conversation is REAL. David Tan says: who is that? |
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August 15th, 2005
Last week's pix, courtesy of EDRIAN JOHN POSTED AT 02:44 PM GruvAvenue
Farid Ali / Mr. Gambus
[edit] I was supposed to, but forgot, to give credit for the pix. Is it too late now? Lols. Yeah, I didn't take them. Edrian did. Listening to: Princess Lullaby - Az Samad |
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The band leader or something. Isn't often you see a double bass.
Drums
Keys and Sax
Singer person. Okay laaahhh.
Mr. Farid Ali with his gambus.
Eric Lee - keys.
John Thomas - drums 
August 16th, 2005
Drugged... POSTED AT 10:41 PM I think I'm addicted. I can't function normally anymore if I'm not high. I can't study anymore. I can't smile, and be nice and friendly. I need need need NEED to be high. I'm addicted. My drug of choice is... SUGAR. Lots and lots of it. I hope I don't get diabetic. I've figured out my slump period. It's somewhere before 9 am, and sometime between 2 - 4 pm. See... I'm not all that awake for the first parts of my 8am lectures, though by the time we get to the middle, I start doing okay. Then there's this thing about me being awfully sleepy during afternoon classes around two or three, and perking up at four or later. After lunch syndrome or something? But it happens whether I have a light or heavy lunch, so I don't think it's the food. I've finally reached 17 thousand words. I'm aiming at 20K by the weekend, if I have the time. I. Need. To. S T U D Y........................... |
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August 18th, 2005
fantastic! POSTED AT 11:00 AM The thunderstorms yesterday evening and this morning were superb. Haha. Except for the wet feet part. Ergh. I should be sleeping at home during thunderstorms, not attempting to go for class. Met up with my sis' housemate in Adelaide and got back thingies! Will post up pics of my new book... and David's - for him to drool over. Haha. Later. When I get round to it. |
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August 18th, 2005
POSTED AT 04:44 PM My new booooookkkkkk....
David's new book.... Go drool, boy. Hahahahahaha...
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August 19th, 2005
arrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhh POSTED AT 05:15 PM NOW would be a good time to start panicking. Exam time table is (finally) out! Waaahhhhhh *cries* Erm. Whatever. |
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August 20th, 2005
yum... POSTED AT 10:23 AM
Left to right: Pauline, Doreen, Yu Yuan, me and Siew Theen. Reading: MASB 3 Listening to: Solution - Paul Colman Trio |
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August 21st, 2005
adrenaline? POSTED AT 10:56 PM After one whole semester of struggling really hard to get up for 8am class, I get my exam timetable - and what do you know? I'm up at 7.30 am without setting the alarm clock. I put it down to pure adrenaline. It has to be. Unless it's God tell me to buck up and start studying. Since I was up so early to day, I went to the 8am service. Came back, did some studying... took a half hour nap then went for lunch at 1pm or so. Met Trixie when I came back, and we went to the study room for about 2 hours plus. Then I napped again. Haha. Dinner... fiddled with this new software audacity then...
But it's been quite productive. More than usual, anyway. Oh, and I saw Jo and Andrew at TBR! Listening to: the story of the first christmas - Perry Como Watching: MASB 10 - Leases |
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August 22nd, 2005
where... what POSTED AT 10:04 PM Aunty Esther asked at cell if I think I'll be working here after graduating. My dad is trying to device ways to shift me to Adelaide with my sister. Haha. We'll see, eh? ~ What was it that StarWars fans always quote? Anger and hatred leads to the dark side? Did they ever say how they overcome it? |
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August 25th, 2005
study? POSTED AT 02:04 PM I think I'm still waiting for the panic to set in. Studies aren't progressing very quickly yet. There
are lots I'm planning on doing. (Oh, I'll study this bit... leave that
bit later... read this first... memorise that later. What's with all
the laters?!) Sigh. Slightly more than 2 weeks left. I hope I'm not being overconfident. |
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August 26th, 2005
ouch POSTED AT 11:39 PM Cramped the whole afternoon. Sigh. At least I got a goooooooood long sleep. Didn't feel like waking up for cell at all. Haha. |
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August 27th, 2005
fey POSTED AT 06:34 PM Could you be the more And I dance the dance of fey Said you were the one So I dance the dance of fey I'll dance the dance of fey Listening to: Better is One Day - Kutless [strong tower] Feeling: fey |
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August 28th, 2005
congratulations to... POSTED AT 03:08 PM DAVID TAN!!! for his unexpected Grade 7 distinction (piano practical) EDRIAN JOHN for his uh... bowling championship HOU TSENG best mooter at KDU? ME! For going to study! Hahahahahaha Feeling: stupidity reveals itself. |
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August 29th, 2005
restless POSTED AT 06:07 PM T.A. Barron is good. Brian Jacques is good. Brian Jacques says T.A. Barron is good. Does that mean Barron is doubly good? Robert Ludlum is very good. Jason Bourne is very fascinating. He beats Tom Clancy hands down. Clancy spouts too much gun/armourment/political nonsense in very long paragraphs. Ludlum brings you straight to the action. Ian Rankin was pretty interesting too. I still haven't found Robin Hobb. What am I talking about? I'm
just very restless. And random. And hungry. And sleepy. Going to bed at
3am is not, and never will be a good idea. Especially when you have
8.30 class the next morning. How do you tell your body to shut down and
go to sleep? |
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August 31st, 2005
selamat hari merdeka! POSTED AT 12:08 AM "merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!" Malangnya, masih perlu duduk kat bilik dan ulangkaji untuk ujian. Merdeka apa ni?! Aduhai. Nak pi BK esok tak? --- 10 Sep, 2-4pm: Pendidikan Moral Reading: text book la, dongoi Listening to: I will Worship - Garden City Youth |
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