Entries for August, 2006
August 1st, 2006
a new phase POSTED AT 08:35 PM And this has been the first day of the rest of my life - working life, that is. Hehe. It was... okay. See, it's currently the off-peak season, so there are many people, and few jobs. I have no allocation for the whole month... yet. Muahaha. So I am just... sitting around and asking seniors for odd jobs to fill time. The good thing about having been a trainee here is that I remember at least half of the seniors, and most of them remember me too. Whee. What's embarrasing is... talking to a senior and walking away thinking: what on earth is his / her name again? ANYWAYS. I forgot what I wanted to blog about. Oh wells. Reading: the magician's nephew - cs lewis 2 talked!
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August 1st, 2006
the car park story POSTED AT 10:25 PM I remembered... I forgot to tell the car park story. Haha. When I did my training, I used to park at this old house where this indian lady would collect money, like RM3 per day, or RM50 for the whole month, but the place has already been bulldozed down and some buildings are being built there. SO, dad's brilliant idea was to park at the GBC carpark where they apparently also rent out parking space on working days. I went there today, and there was no jaga... so I just parked and thought I'll settle after office hours lor. But when I came back, there was still no one taking care. I told my dad about it when I got home, and he called Pastor Lim to ask. Apparently they rent it monthly, not daily, and their lists are full... so I think I stole someone's space today. *oops* The good part about this story is that Pr Lim says since I'm the Pastor's daughter (kekeke) he'll let me park in the church itself for free. So blessed... Reading: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe - cs lewis Listening to: all the earth - sacred revolution Feeling: thankful |
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August 2nd, 2006
Things POSTED AT 09:11 PM I want to do:
--- My mum made yoghurt today. It gave me the hiccups. Haha. |
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August 3rd, 2006
i wish i could hate you POSTED AT 09:29 PM My car died. Again. Well, it technically didn't die on the road, but it amounts to about the same thing. See, I was reversing out the driveway, and stopped to close the gate when I noticed this long trail of water ending at a pool of water where my car had been parked. *ding ding... warning lights* Stopped, called dad. Followed instructions to try and refill the water in the radiator. Nothing doing, it doesn't fill. *sigh* Wait for dad to come back from whereever on earth they were having morning walk so that he could drive me to work. I really, really wish I could hate my car. But then, it might decide to get even more cranky on me. So... I must be nice to it. Molly coddle it. For now. Most probably until I get confirmed... and maybe I can see about that "car loan" thing they talked about on the website. Then... I can get a new car and let my bro wrestle with this one. Muahahaha. Reading: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe - cs lewis Listening to: last notes - shaun groves |
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August 5th, 2006
the freedom we know POSTED AT 02:33 PM We’re gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know
The world turns in all of its ways There’s no end to the love that He gives
This mystery unthinkable
soul set free
so come, come all the lost and the found in full view with nothing to hide ---- Woohoo... I love this song! I can't wait to get my hands on the new Hillsong album - Mighty to Save. I know it's been released in KL already, but is it in Penang yet? [edit 5.04pm: I BOUGHT IT DY!! WHEE] --- Oh, and to help Elaine, go read Singing In The Sky. Like, now. And then you can go and read the commentary. This is to occupy you while my blog stays a little empty for now... I'm pondering whether to upload the story that I was intending to write for the Utusan novel writing thingy last year, but never finished. It's not yet finished, but if I intend to post it up, I'll have to get round to continue writing it, and so there will be LESS posts here. But we'll see how it goes, where the mood takes me. I'm just feeling blastedly lazy right now. Haha. (Another random piece up at fictionpress, if you didn't know. Click on the first story, then click to the last chapter.) Listening to: narnia soundtrack |
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August 7th, 2006
a midnight prayer POSTED AT 12:24 AM Dear Father in Heaven, We thank You for the wonderful blessings You have poured out on our lives. We thank You for the time You have given us on this earth, teaching us to seek Your face. We thank You for the wonderful people You have placed in our lives, who have become our friends, our support and our strength. We lift up to You now Jasmine and her family. I thank You for the blessing they have been to me, to us as a CF, as friends. I thank You that You have placed them in my life, even if it was only for a short time. Lord, You know Aunty's condition. In Your Word You said that by Your stripes we are healed. We claim Your healing, Lord. Let every growth be removed in Your name. Let the cancer be cleansed in Your name. Father, we pray for extended life, for a full and purposeful life to be lived out for Your glory. We lift her up to You Lord, to cleanse and to heal. Grant Your peace and strength to Jasmine and her brothers. Grant your favour on her father. Prince of Peace, let Your peace reign in this situation. Pour out Your strength, that they may face each day with renewed faith. Most of all Lord, let Your will be done, and grant us the peace and understanding to accept what You would do. In Jesus name, Amen. |
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August 9th, 2006
August 12th, 2006
stories POSTED AT 11:19 AM I started uploading the new story, although it's not yet finished. By the time I finish uploading it, it would probably (hopefully) be finished. I don't know. You can read it here. I'll be sort of re-editing it while I post it up, so I hope it finally links together in the end because at the moment, I don't think it really links very well. Yet. --- I'm going for my first outside audit this coming Monday! Whee... Hahaha... Oh well. It's something new to look out for. Tee hee. We had an all-day training yesterday, and somewhere in between the discussions, I got a little lost. Because some of them were asking stuff that I have no idea about. Haha. Well, so now I'm going to learn lor. --- I'm learning how to sing More To Life by Stacie Orrico. I'm also learning Stars (Switchfoot). And I Still Believe (Jeremy Camp). Do you know that you can really like the song and listen to it a million times and then forget how it sounds? Haha. I think I have a brain defect. And now I'm off... to upload another chapter. Hehe. Reading: The Brethren - John Grisham Listening to: I Still Believe - Jeremy Camp |
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August 12th, 2006
*cries* POSTED AT 11:24 PM I was standing outside the church building, right opposite the coffee shop, somewhere slightly left of the carpark, talking to Cheryl Yu. There were one or two cars passing by... one or two motorbikes going the right way, and some the wrong way. The others were standing outside the church door, less than 50 meters away (don't quote me on the meters, I don't know how far, but quite near)... talking... slowly making their way to us... Then this FAT INDIAN MAN riding on his motorbike THE WRONG WAY down the road suddenly comes near me... and TRIES TO SNATCH MY HANDBAG. The only thing was, Cheryl was holding my hand so the bag first snags against my arm (giving me a gigantic bruise) and travels up her arm. If I'd been merely holding it by the strap, he would've gotten it. But I sling my bag around my arm usually anyway. The others thought (when I screamed) that the fella had brushed against me with his bike. Cheryl said she initially thought so too... until she realised that my bag was on her arm, being pulled. But the guy got away with nothing. Siiiggghhh. My arm hurts. |
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August 13th, 2006
POSTED AT 11:40 PM I want to be so much more A heart deep enough to dream --- There are so many things I want to do, but I don't know how to begin. Home and familiarity is blunting the drive I had before I came back. But I will not allow it to happen. At least, I will try not to. And trust that God won't let it die either. |
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August 16th, 2006
work... POSTED AT 10:44 PM I'm in the middle of my first week on an outside audit... It's kind of okay... Only it's in Bayan Lepas, so my senior fetches me either from home (since he stays at Azuria) or the office so transportation is a bit of a hassle especially if he decides to go back to office rather than go home after we leave the client's place and I have to rush home to make sure David gets dinner. Haha. *I miss my mummy* I don't know if I work "too fast" or what... I find that I keep finishing the stuff I'm supposed to do (which is good) then the senior and the other girl will be like "eh, you got nothing to do again ah?" Haha. Or maybe they're only giving me the easy and quick things. I'm so sleepy! Reading: The Last Battle - C.S. Lewis Listening to: Latin Poolside Dreams |
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August 19th, 2006
enlightenment POSTED AT 02:28 PM Apparently I have a way of misusing words. I said to my senior the other day that I was "confused... Maybe you can enlighten me." He replied, "No la, don't compare me with Buddha." Culture. Makes innocent words un-innocent. I was thinking of enlightenment in terms of: Definition: awareness, understanding He was thinking in terms of: Buddhism & Hinduism. A blessed state in which the individual transcends desire and suffering and attains Nirvana. Hm. Apparently, according to answers.com, Enlightenment was a term used for the European intellectual movement in the 17th - 18th century, where the use and celebration of reason was exalted, in part bringing about the rise of deism, skeptism, atheism and materialism. The word seems to have major spiritual and religious connotations both in the Western and Eastern world. However, note this distinction: Kant is here talking about "Aufklärung", a phase in cultural history marked by a faith in reason; this is quite different from "Erleuchtung", the spiritual awakening spoken of above in relation to e.g. the Buddha. Only in English is the same word used for these two different phenomena. Also, the "Age of Enlightenment" is used as a proverbial time of maturing "when the illusions of childhood lift, and one is left with greater self-awareness and understanding of their own roles and responsibilities in the world." What a wrong word to use! Haha. [edit: speaking about words... Next two chapters are up!] |
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August 20th, 2006
sigh POSTED AT 10:41 PM I had a million and one things to blog about earlier on. Then I forgot. Sigh. Results come out tomorrow and I'm having shivers today. Arrggh. ANYWAY. Anyway. I can't remember what I wanted to say. Haha. -this has been another totally random, pointless update. thank you for wasting your time- Listening to: Flying East - Fourplay |
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August 21st, 2006
ghosts POSTED AT 11:31 PM I told myself this morning that I'd finally write about ghosts. I'd wanted to yesterday, but as you can read, I forgot about it. It's like I've been facing ghosts this past weekend until today. Spectres of the past, if you will. Saturday evening, I was singing at the Dome during the Roy Durman healing service, and he was praying for people. There was this Indian girl in a wheelchair, head lolling. At certain angles, she suddenly looked very like an old classmate of mine, Losheni. This classmate had been studying in India, and during a rather severe asthma attack, she went into coma. It happened so long ago that I'd forgotten about her - I didn't even know if she was still alive or not. But then and there, seeing this girl, I thought about her, and I became pretty sure that it was her. The sad part of this story was that even though it was a healing meeting, she didn't get healed then and there. The good part of this story is that her parents raised their hands to accept Christ. Well, I think they were her parents la. Another ghost that came to haunt me was stumbling across the blog of a very old friend / enemy. Haha. That was weird. And the final ghost for today was... receiving the reward of my terrible study habits. I passed 2 out of 3. Sigh. Oh well. Life goes on. Listening to: fourplay :) |
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August 22nd, 2006
efficiency? POSTED AT 10:32 PM I figured it's all really comparative. When I was with Evelyn, I felt awfully slow, because she was terribly fast and efficient and the deadlines always seemed to be tight. Now with this current senior, I'm wondering if I'm fast, because he seems to take things slowly and there seems to be SO much time allocated to the job. And he's been on leave for two days already. Playing with his newborn son. Haha. Feeling lost at work again... At a loss of what to do. Haha. --- I'm having trouble writing the break-up scene. --- There's this place up in Batu Maung (SO FAR...) that we ate at today, Fusion Experience (or something like that.) Set meals start at RM4.90 - main meal with ice lemon tea and fruits. Cheap eh. There's another place somewhere there also, Little Castle, that sells chicken chop at RM4.90. Cheap cheap cheap. But so far! I prefer Fusion though... even though the menu is more limited, it's quieter, and more classy... and they play Michael Buble and Norah Jones. Listening to: mainsejuk |
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August 24th, 2006
stronger POSTED AT 11:33 PM The words popped into my mind. We're getting stronger everyday, stronger - delirious? (verse 1) Is He not strong enough? strong enough - stacie orrico (chorus) When we are weak, He is strong. Coming: my 'because' factor. Luke 4:18 - 19 The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, Because he anointed me to preach good tidings to the poor: He hath sent me to proclaim release to the captives, And recovering of sight to the blind, To set at liberty them that are bruised, to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord. |
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August 25th, 2006
what i finally got round to realising i learnt POSTED AT 10:29 PM Hillsong Conference was a long time ago. And I have not said anything. Much. Until now. Luke 4:18 - 19 The Spirit of the Lord is upon me BECAUSE He has anointed me to
to preach the ACCEPTABLE year of the Lord
Luke 4: 18 - 19 was Jesus' mission statement, giving him his 5 because factors. Note then that he was anointed by the Spirit of the Lord to do his task. He did not do it alone, He did not work outside where His anointing was, He was prepared and equipped. Whatever you are gifted to do, it should point back to that great "because." The 5 becauses in verse 18 shows us clearly what God came to do for us:
The acceptable year of the Lord in verse 19 says that there is a specific beginning and ending to the ministry, and it is during this fixed period of time that God shows unprecedented mercy and grace. To live a successful life in the ministry, it is important to be clear about your heaven mission (purpose). By defining your because factor, you will be able to stay focused on what God gave you to do, rather than just reacting to situations that come your way. It will also protect you against the wiles of Satan, who will try to steal your dreams. By affirming in your heart what you believe God meant for you to do on earth, you will have won the war in your heart first - it is easiest to lose your dream right before your breakthrough. Therefore! I tried listing out my because factors last night. This is in no way fully defined, confirmed, fixed, or anything yet. Or forever. But for now, I think this is it.
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August 26th, 2006
rock of ages POSTED AT 11:35 PM was a blast!! Wheee... even thought I forgot the words to my song (bleh.) Anyway, I was only singing parts / harmonising... so I guess it didn't really matter A bit shy lar. Apparently I'm more recognisable / famous than I thought. I met Lucy, the brains behind SAND, and on introduction, she went "oh, you're the one that did Esther right?" And they said that tonight's function was much better than the previous CF function (Christmas night). Apparently, they said something like the few years previously it was quite good, and then last year's was not-so-good, and then this was very good! hahaha. And I'm catching this in half hokkien with some BM and some English. LOL. Argh. Me wants pictures. How could I go for a concert and forget my camera? Haha. CACATS. Listening to: amoroso - fourplay. |
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And then near the ending of the thing, I caught Mr. Bernard outside the college auditorium door and talked to him for a while, wanting to get some comments. He was a little busy and had to leave for a while, so he asked me to talk to the Security guys. Amazingly, the security guard (whom I did recognise) remembered me as being a student... and then the guy who usually opens doors for us (what do you call him?) - especially the auditorium doors when we do functions - said "Oh, no wonder la, she looks so familiar." Hehe.August 27th, 2006
POSTED AT 06:32 PM Dropped by a church site... Looked at this, and liked it. Our Values NCC's twelve core values are part of the DNA of National Community Church. They are both descriptive and prescriptive of who we are as a church:
Listening to: compact jazz - astrud gilberto |
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