Entries for March, 2009
March 1st, 2009
Crazy POSTED AT 06:34 PM I don't know if I'm crazy to think of going or crazy to think I'm crazy for thinking of going. But to quote Lex, "EX? YOU'RE CRAZY RIGHT... ffft it's CHEAP LA" Or Sim, "u should go... save up and go... see the world while u can!" Or Thern's simple, "yea y not" I don't know if I'm particularly partial to travelling or adventure (I like my room, and my books, and my comforts very much, thank you) but there's this sudden restlessness with cash of my own to burn and a ready passport. As well as that feeling of not having accomplished very much anywhere. It's always that feeling of not having enough. But I do. Right now I do, stuffed away here and there, and then I'll be back at square one after the trip, but that's the point of having money right - to use? It's not as if I will die or starve or default on my debts or fall into debt if I go. More of, what can I do with it right now? I don't particularly need to buy anything at this point - even fixing my sound card can wait, seeing that I've set up my own 'laptop berth' for that purpose beside my PC. I guess it's just that feeling of why now, why suddenly? Am I crazy? Bah but it's time for farewells, more people leaving our already under-staffed office, and then off to movie night @ cley. talk to me!
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March 4th, 2009
March 8th, 2009
itchyyyy POSTED AT 12:57 AM I have conjunctivitis (doesn't that sound so dramatic), well a variant of it.
Sigh. Yep. I've been banned from my lenses for at least 2 weeks. It's itchy, now. And awfully painful when the lenses are in. Bah humbug. |
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March 9th, 2009
public holiday randomness POSTED AT 07:44 PM I walked out to lunch today. Haha. Realised that in Fellowship of the Ring, Aragorn (Viggo Mortensen)'s voice, is really thin and squeaky. I mean, like... whiney. I hope it wasn't meant to be so. *shiver* I didn't do half what I wanted to, but I don't think I want to care. I'm starting to care less and less about my work. This should change. Funnily enough, I would never have realised it if I hadn't been talking to colleagues about applying for leave. My coming vacation makes me smile at the oddest times. I need to start planning. I probably need to go finish up that work. Unless I can safely assure myself that I am going to be very efficient tomorrow. I hope. I can't write because my vision isn't big enough. I'm still focused on the petty things. Petty mindedness! Maybe I need a life. Maybe I need to really see that this is all bigger than me and you, than what I do or do not do. So encompass me. Swallow me whole, let me go into the depths of You. .IGNITE.passion.LIGHT.world. Take me. |
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March 15th, 2009
rainbow promises and ribbon dances POSTED AT 12:54 AM so is this your rainbow promise
--- captured 7.25pm outside PCC --- Other random photographs taken on my camera phone, which I finally got around to transferring into my computer and uploading.
Up in Camerons, on one crazy impulse. And the next because he said I don't take photos of him.
Rapture. I don't know if it's still there, but these shoes were left on the curb outside the Holy Spirit Church where we usually park our cars when we carpool to work.
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March 15th, 2009
promises POSTED AT 11:19 AM
Because I prayed that You would capture our hearts totally, and capture our imaginations, and You have. And we were talking rainbows a few hours before, and then I saw it, awesomely, because I hardly ever look up. It was such a full rainbow, from end to end, a perfect arch, rare to behold. It's a pity I didn't have a better camera. It's a flush of first-love, a falling where I don't know where I'll land. A flying and a soaring though I don't know how or where or why. But if I go through with this, I know I will be forever changed. Who wouldn't? And it's crazy, but that's who You are. |
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March 22nd, 2009
gripe POSTED AT 10:26 PM Maybe it's just a something too small to mention. But I really think that if parents want to teach their children to be responsible, they need to make sure they make good on their promises and commitments. Your kid might be a right prig and deserve to be grounded, but if they've committed to a project, you have got to make sure they see it through and not allow the rest of the team to run aground. Or maybe that's the way to do it to make them feel guilty that they weren't responsible enough to get things done. Except it really doesn't work when they don't feel the guilt. It's just telling them that I can get away with not finishing things if I get mommy or daddy to say that I can't go. Cis bedebah, really. Doesn't anyone know how to make good on their word anymore? [edit: i realise that went into some other thing that i thought i'd gotten over with. So apparently not.] |
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March 24th, 2009
jargon POSTED AT 10:22 PM There are some things only an auditor understands. Peak, backlogging, second shifting and llb-ing. I wish I didn't understand any of it. Except maybe the last. I brought my lappie along with me for dinner, and turned it on while waiting. The owner came up and asked me if I was an auditor. Bah humbug. Back to work. |
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Well, apparently she was one too.March 28th, 2009
randoms POSTED AT 11:38 AM Plethora of God's blessings. I'm playing around with Celtx Studios - way awesome! =) Happy happy, bu'erfwies! I have things to say that I don't know how to say, but time's awasting and I need to be out for brunch-lunch soon. Oh oh... and it's FOUR days to FADE IN! And I've already got a concept and 6 characters! Whee |
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March 29th, 2009
stretched POSTED AT 03:42 PM but You're stretching me, aren't You? With games for kids and sports for youth. I find myself doing the unexpected. And yet she said I didn't look stretched. Maybe because I've learnt to wrap in silence things I feel need not be said. Because when you committed us, I accepted the responsibility. What is there to say then? |
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