And so he asked me why I missed kayell.

I guess I miss...

the college peeps
lex. ziggie. rowen. solo. becca. jasmine. dih. shawn. lings. edwin.

the church peeps
julian. jayne. yarn. fayz.

the jammin' (and aborted song writing)
ed. jc. honyau. rayz. lex

the hanging places
om's. mali's. brj. mrj. hostel. jr. jj. bk. alexis. danau.

the ibridgers
pg. sim. debs. and now ben.

the unclassifiable stuff
bry. cf. christmas night. af. 1800. sandwiches and peaches party. midnight walks. cg. hostel grounds in the moonlight. ym. randomness.

I guess it's a lot about the people I met there, though a few aren't there anymore, and holding on to friendships made and relationships built. I realise I wasn't much into church people. They had their cliques, and I had mine, and I guess we never really gelled.

But I think what I miss most about kayell, is the person that I change into when I am there. The bright, chipper, outgoing, confident, friendly, capable person that I am when I am on my own. The ability to go randomly crazy with people I trust. The weightlessness of knowing that no one knows who I am or where I come from.

And yet I can only wish to bring that home to where I am.

I wonder why.